Millie @Atatra@computerfairi.es

being disabled and kinky is an exercise in trying to explain to people that i want to be unable to walk because of something i wanted, not because of something that wasn't my choice

"hi yeah, can you bring me a pot of freshly ground, dark roast coffee, two slices of chocolate cake, spank me until i cry and then cuddle me afterwards, please and thank you"

in that period mood of needing to eat everything sweet i can get my hands on, drink two pots of coffee, lay in bed and cuddle, and have unspeakable things done to me by a cute girl. you know, hormonal stuff

maybe i just spend the day making character playlists for the three main characters.....maybe

people say days go by isn't a proper offspring song because it's so different from their other material but god damn it works so well for elena and stargazer and i've just been stimming to it over and over thinking about their characterization

sitting on my laptop listening to music, vividly imagining scenes from the story i'm meant to be writing but am actually not currently because my brain won't work, you know, one of those days

there are shotguns out there, shotguns more than 30 years old, built on the AK rifle platform that can take drums that hold more than 30 12 gauge shells and be modified to use a full auto AK rifle trigger group. we had the tech in the 80s to make a shotgun that can dump 30 rounds in 5 seconds, although we haven't invented wrists and shoulders that can match that yet

like, today, there is a bit of an argument that bolt action snipers are still capable of a higher accuracy ceiling if built, tuned and maintained to extremely high standards, but if you're just finding a sniper rifle on the greasy floor of some doom wad esque sci fi fortress, odds are a semi automatic rifle is going to be 100% as effective and accurate as any bolt action, and easier to use too. and the main reason pump action shotguns still exist is for civilians. that's it

always just, absolutely fascinating to me when sci fi shooters just, decide that actually in the time since the 21st century, the well developed technology of semi automatic weaponry has been lost, but only for shotguns and sniper rifles, because so many scifi shooters insist on still having bolt action sniper rifles and pump action shotguns, despite the fact that they're very niche weapons at this point beyond civilian use, and would be even less useful in 100 years

i'm pretty certain i'm on my period or close to it by the fact that seeing literally one piece of art on my tumblr feed of a butch trans girl with bulge got me so period horny i couldn't think properly for like 30 minutes

my new political praxis is to get around trans girls being uncomfortable topping/domming due to the potential assosciations with traditionally male roles in sexuality, we need to completely break up the assosciation between topping and domming, more service tops and power bottoms

"oh sure I can top, but you're gonna have to truss me like a prey animal and set the pace, those are my terms"