Supside @Supside@computerfairi.es

want to learn how to make legit chiptune music

Sound mixers uwu

Gotta get better at this streaming thing lol.

I’ve evolved beyond the need 2 sleep. u don’t know.

I’m Addicted to Polygons.

Well I’m feeling older, pull off to the shoulder; wondering with my head in my hands- should I call my wife?

i hate having BPD.

In kind of a bad place right now. I hate how attached I get to people.

*woof*

And so it's like, is that an indicator? And if so, does me not experiencing it to the same degree that I used to, that other people still do, mean that I don't have it?

And with certain people I've met who have it, it seems like that's how it affects them, but continuously, whereas it felt like I eventually painstakingly crawled my way to being able to understand things around me, now with much more clarity.

It's like everything was... fuzzy. The world around me and all the people in it making up this vast uninterpretable space, and I didn't know how to interface with it at all. Like I was almost just a body floating through the situations I was in very unintuitively.

There's so much of like, stuff that's very hard for me to describe in just, how I perceived everything growing up, that I feel like people used as reason to believe I had autism. And I don't experience those things anymore (or maybe just not to the same degree) and use that to kind of say "okay maybe I don't have it", but I'm still wondering?

might try Twitch Streaming more in the future

recent picture of me all done up and i quite like it.

feel kind of put down by the fact that even in interactions with enby people irl they seem freaked out by my expression of multigenderedness, and i wonder who wouldn’t be scared off from wanting to date me.

I seriously never thought I’d get to a year on HRT. I hadn’t really kept track of my starting date so I’d never known how much time had passed, but finding out it’s already been a year is kinda unexpected and reassuring in a way I haven’t felt in awhile.

i’m gonna sleep finally.