Tarale @Tarale@computerfairi.es

@troubleMoney Yeah, my husband obviously has this view of me, or of autism, that basically causes him to reject the conversation about it immediately.

I also have to laugh at the "doesn't like change" thing I keep getting on performance reviews.

Like THE COMPANY WAS BOUGHT BY ANOTHER COMPANY
PEOPLE KEEP GETTING MADE REDUNDANT
AND MOST OF THE CHANGES SUCK

DOES ANYBODY LIKE THAT???
ANYONE???

@troubleMoney Yeah and I'm not entirely sure my view of myself is very accurate… at some point I should ask mum if she still has things like my school report cards. I know my job performance evaluations read like a list of the ways I'm inflexible and anxious and weird though…

And I'm scared to talk about it to anyone besides my husband (who isn't very receptive to the discussion), or on here, because… well… I have a 9 and a half month old son and I'm worried people (in particular my mother in law, who is being… just awful) will try to take him away and say I'm an unfit mother :(

Of course, autism wasn't really something I heard of, growing up, at least not until later in life when my cousin was diagnosed. And it was never something I thought might apply to me. I was just shy and awkward and I thought the other kids were mean.

I'm still not entirely sure if I'm autistic but wow every time he talks about a support strategy and what behaviour it aims to correct I'm like YIKES

also it's keeping me up at night reliving all my fucking faux pas

Like, he's describing interventions you can take with kids to teach them social skills and how and why they help and it's stuff like not understanding which social circles a joke might be OK in (ahh cringe cringe) or dobbing on other kids (ahhhhhhhhh) or idiosyncratic humour (I thought my sense of humour was broken for ages).

And I'm up to the part about 9-13 year olds befriending the opposite sex and it me, the tomboy with no fashion sense, who has no girl friends ahhhh

So I'm reading The Complete Guide to Aspergers Syndrome, as part of a self-discovery thing, to figure out if I'm autistic or not, and…

…every time he goes into the clinical descriptions of things I think "nah" and "maybe, but probably not clinically significant"

THEN he describes what kids with autism are like at various ages and I swear to fuck I'm having, like, flashbacks of all my childhood faux pas and also several adult ones

@squirrel ah, it's been domesticated and needs a little help then. poor little guy.

@squirrel to be fair this is how the vcr would live in the wild

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go, cat, rip out that mean ole towel's exposed underbelly with your back legs, kill, KILL

you weirdo

i love you

the cat is trying to murder a towel

As for my thoughts on Pacific Rim Uprising, it's not as good as the first film, but I still liked it. It feels like it's rushing a bit, trying to fit everything in, and it doesn't build up its characters and their relationships as well as the first one, but there's still plenty of fun robot smashy fighty fights. Some key plot points remind me of parts of Neon Genesis Evangelion episode 7 (A Human Work), and parts of End of Evangelion… also there seems to be a Blues Brothers reference…

I am "on" all the time now, with the kid. Just… running from one chore to the next, planning this, cooking that, cleaning something. So it was just so good to have one little drink, a giant bucket of popcorn, and nothing to do but watch a fun-dumb movie for a couple of hours.

Beer is also good.

I got a few hours baby-free yesterday and watched Pacific Rim Uprising with my husband for his birthday. It was good. I also had a beer.

Ah cool. The baby is going through another "Wonder Week". This one is where he learns about sequences… like that one thing needs to happen before another (underwear BEFORE pants!) So I'll see some cool new abilities soon.

But first I'll see clinginess and whinging because these Wonder Weeks turn his whole world upside down and it's scary.

@Xkeeper I don't think there's any competitor to them either (at least in Australia), besides maybe very small sandwich shops

Sandwiches from Subway are always sloppy and disappointing but you always forget that until you have your sloppy disappointing sandwich right in front of you

@BatElite haha well it was copy and paste and then try to unmangle