bev! @TonicBH@computerfairi.es

dumb midnight question: am i nonbinary

My priorities when ripping music off old CDs:

Song someone mentioned on my socials? Yeah I got that, lemme find the CD and rip it immediately.

Song I heard on some YouTube videos about Star Citizen? Yeah I got that, lemme find the CD and rip it immediately.

A White Stripes album I bought months ago and has a fair share of bangers on it?
Eh, I'll rip it later.

So there's a crucial point in System Shock where I need to input two 3-digit codes to activate something, and each digit is placed throughout the world, determined randomly.

One of the codes I got was 420. Blaze it, insects.

I've been craving affection a bit the past few days and haven't really had any opportunity to do it.

Being starved of affection really sucks.

how does one learn to love themselves and their bodies without feeling a complete sense of self-loathing?

I've always had that problem and it feels like the only solution often times is losing weight which seems utterly impossible with me these days :/

It's unfortunate to see Richard Jacques condemn and criticize Tee Lopes' cover of a song he wrote for Sonic R publicly on Twitter.

I mean, that's ridiculously *petty*. I love Jacques' work, but this ain't it, chief.

I've been using Windows 10 for a few years now, and only today did I realize that turning off some background apps can make things less laggy and load faster.

There were a lot of built-in apps I don't use, just running in the background eating up memory and disk space. Even games like Asphalt 8 *and* 9 were running in the background when I've stopped playing both.

I selectively turned most of them off but I probably could've turned the whole feature off with minimal problems.

it's kinda weird to get used to my new avatar.

to switch from using a cat from neko atsume to a picrew avatar that looks more like ideally me is still throwing me off somewhat

Oh yeah, pronouns. I've put "prefers they/them" in my profile for the past few months, which is not something I'm strictly enforcing.

To me pronouns don't really matter? It doesn't bother me as much if someone says "he/him" because they're not *wrong*. So use whatever pronouns fit, idk

It took me a while to like, figure out who I was (besides "not a cis male"), and being NB seems to be the most comfortable fit for me.

This may change someday, maybe it won't. For now, though, I'm okay with non-binary.

So, I've been slowly adjusting and updating things on my social media to make this announcement less stressful on myself.

After years of questioning, after several months of therapy and support, I figured out something about myself:

I'm non-binary.

I smelled some popcorn being cooked, so I cook myself a bag.

Turns out it's buttery kettle corn rather than traditional buttered popcorn.

Not really what I wanted, but it'd be a waste to throw this popcorn away.

today I learned there was another theme composed for that short-lived Match Game Hollywood Squares Hour, and boy it sounds like it fell straight out of 1978: https://youtu.be/cY-kO2Gf3jM?t=255

(it's also better than the actual show theme )