bev! @TonicBH@computerfairi.es

Facebook reminded me of a Twitter thread I did 3 years ago about me and gender issues.

Seems this has been something I've been thinking about for a long time, and stupid me never acted upon any of it until this year.

I still feel as if I'm playing catch up.

you know, there comes a point where randomizers stop being interesting, and judging by this speedrun, we've clearly passed that point.

Been playing a fairly bad licensed title I bought on a whim years ago: Rambo: The Video Game.

It does so many dumb and terrible ideas that I'm amazed it got made. Dull light gun gameplay mixed with bad audio and looked bad even by 2014 standards.

Yet the same people who made this made that new Terminator game that just came out, which *might* be better? Maybe?

New on the Secret Area: I Bought Stuff! Portland Retro Gaming Expo 2019 Edition (and more!)
Games, more games, and a Lucario plush. Lots of good stuff.
https://asecretarea.com/2019/11/22/i-bought-stuff-portland-retro-gaming-expo-2019-edition-and-more/

Me: *sells about 20 old games they don't need for $40*

Also me: *buys a Lucario plush for $20*

I am good at saving money.

I always hear people "being comfortable in their own skin" and wonder how I can do that.

Because I always hate the way I look even when I dress up nice to go to places.

dumb midnight question: am i nonbinary

My priorities when ripping music off old CDs:

Song someone mentioned on my socials? Yeah I got that, lemme find the CD and rip it immediately.

Song I heard on some YouTube videos about Star Citizen? Yeah I got that, lemme find the CD and rip it immediately.

A White Stripes album I bought months ago and has a fair share of bangers on it?
Eh, I'll rip it later.

So there's a crucial point in System Shock where I need to input two 3-digit codes to activate something, and each digit is placed throughout the world, determined randomly.

One of the codes I got was 420. Blaze it, insects.

I've been craving affection a bit the past few days and haven't really had any opportunity to do it.

Being starved of affection really sucks.

how does one learn to love themselves and their bodies without feeling a complete sense of self-loathing?

I've always had that problem and it feels like the only solution often times is losing weight which seems utterly impossible with me these days :/

It's unfortunate to see Richard Jacques condemn and criticize Tee Lopes' cover of a song he wrote for Sonic R publicly on Twitter.

I mean, that's ridiculously *petty*. I love Jacques' work, but this ain't it, chief.

I've been using Windows 10 for a few years now, and only today did I realize that turning off some background apps can make things less laggy and load faster.

There were a lot of built-in apps I don't use, just running in the background eating up memory and disk space. Even games like Asphalt 8 *and* 9 were running in the background when I've stopped playing both.

I selectively turned most of them off but I probably could've turned the whole feature off with minimal problems.

it's kinda weird to get used to my new avatar.

to switch from using a cat from neko atsume to a picrew avatar that looks more like ideally me is still throwing me off somewhat