bev! @TonicBH@computerfairi.es

why everybody gotta love scorbunny when his evolved form cinderace is better

Have an idea for a future blog post, the problem is I only have a few entries for it, and one entry is one I wanna save for it's own piece.

...anyone know of any video game composers recycling their music in other games?

there's a handful of people here on the fediverse and elsewhere whom I haven't talked to a while.

I hope they're doing okay. Wouldn't mind giving them a hug and asking how they're doing.

someone complimented my bunny sona idea after I gave her the summary of it and it makes me actually more eager to wanna get a drawing/reference

I tried to find some feminine clothes to wear and walked out with a plaid button shirt.

I've officially made the trans rite of passage by getting The One Thing every trans person seems to own in my experience.

Either that or those striped thigh-highs colored like the trans pride flag...

Feeling a little sore today.

Perhaps I shouldn't have walked around in a pair of converses that had no in-sole and had a worn-down heel.

...yeah, I probably should get new shoes.

bleh, tired and snuggly.

still not feeling 100%.

Was sneezing and suffering from a runny nose earlier which ruined some Destiny 2 co-op shenanigans.

I took some cold medicine and got some sleep, but I still feel sick.

Now's not the time to be coming down with something.

morning, folks

There was a brief moment where I considered just abandoning the whole speedrunning scene entirely because of So Many Bad Things that have been happening at GDQ and other places.

I eventually thought "this isn't getting any better, so why bother supporting it?"

Then I realized this was a bit much, that we're better now than we were even five years ago.

I abandoned this chicken little philosophy and went to bed instead. That was the smarter move.

Just finished a game of Quake Champions where I played against a player named "Higgs Boston."

Which is also the name for my Dropkick Murphys tribute band

a friend of my parents sent me one of those chain letters talking about "a woman of spirit" and such.

it's amusing, because she probably just shared it absentmindedly, as I'm not out as nb/femme in public yet.

New on the Secret Area, the first post of 2020!

Have some Weekend Writing about Darksiders, a solid action adventure game that while not wholly original was still fun to play.

https://asecretarea.com/2020/01/05/weekend-writing-darksiders/

Saw a selfie of a trans gal I've been getting back in contact with lately and oh gosh she's a cutie aaa

This is so unlike me, it feels weird to go "oh gosh cuties everywhere " compared to how I was even a year or two back

yet it feels... right? it's hard to explain.

I am so glad I got off the wellbutrin because now I don't hesitate on saying things as much.

Now all that's in my wishlist is an Xbox One X (because fuck it, let's get into current gen just as next-gen hits) and a pair of shoes that looked neat but not 100% certain if they're my size.

...I seriously need to find more things I want.

Cleaned out my Amazon wishlist that was full of stuff that's out of stock and hard to find.

Also I probably wouldn't want any Lego Dimensions stuff in 2020. Different time.

I hate that everyone's so far away.

It would be nice just to snuggle up with anyone just so I don't feel touch-starved.

To show me that people care for me.

To feel valid.