General Zellativity @Zelli@computerfairi.es

first dose today!!

lonely

Today I had an appointment to preserve some sperm since I'm starting HRT. I indicated that I would use it with a partner, but honestly? I'm hoping the day will come when I can use it on myself. I want to be a mother and bear my children, with all the stresses and anxieties and joys that come with it.

I don't know if I'll be able to in my lifetime. I'm not holding my breath. But at least I have my dreams.

(Art by https://www.deviantart.com/cyboarnetic <3333 )

I'm picking up my first dosage of estradiol and spiro in like 3 hours and my heart's fucking racing

there were so many oils i saw at this store. more than i knew existed.

and not a single one of them was flaxseed щ(ﾟДﾟщ)

I need to brush my hair more often, it's so much softer and bouncier when it's properly taken care of

tomorrow's my appointment for sperm collection but some of my more lewd friends seem to have made it a mission to make the wait feel as long as possible >>

okay i'm at that stage of tired where i think my body is actually chemically breaking down so looks like this buny is going sleep <33333

listening to Don't Stop Me Now and really wanting to beat the fuck out of a zombie right now.

sleppy

nervous because i'm paranoid i'll be told that my sperm is not good or looks gross

wound up because i'm supposed to stay "abstinent" for 2-3 days prior. i've gotten through the first day and i'm shaking already

have an appointment to cryobank some sperm on tuesday and i'm p nervous and wound up about it

*contented gurgling that just happens to spell out the Morse code for "good morning" *

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drunk voicechats are fun <3333333333

imagine if it was something harder that i actually thought tasted good lmao

4 beers and i'm kinda fucked up tbh