dysmorphia (but also gratitude)
But I’ve built a community of friends and family around me who understand, or who at least accept what I tell them about the experience. I’m so grateful that I can express the pain, the longing, the self-awareness of the apparent impossibility of what I know is true. I’m so grateful for everyone. #werewolf #dysmorphia
dysmorphia (but also gratitude)
I had a dysmorphic episode today because sometimes I can feel in my nerves the shape that I know is right for me – a werewolf – but I have to keep typing with my pale little hands and thinking with my plaintively human brain. Those tools are both contributors to my dysmorphia and two of the only methods I have to communicate the experience at all. No claws, no elongated jaws, no fur. Just me at my keyboard and phantom sensations.
A dreary late morning start to my 4-hour run concluded with a delightful early afternoon snow squall. 26 easy kilometres in the bank, with enough energy preserved for another 4 hours tomorrow. #trailrunning #running #ultratraining
It's #FursuitFriday, so I'm sneaking in some #CreatureSuit photos. This is me in my Midnight Studios FX #werewolf suit. I picked out each of the body parts at their workshop in Arizona, and they cast, custom-painted and furred it in only a few weeks.
body horror
To me, this is good. I like when this happens.
"Angela, do you mean to other people, to you, or in general?"
Yes.
513: Scribble on the Shared Placemat
https://atp.fm/513
Freeform, convergent encryption, and rumored App Store changes in response to the EU's Digital Markets Act.
A snowy day for my first run around Wildwood Conservation area. Kelly and I covered 25km in 3.5 hours, including some hill repeats on the two steepest nastiest hills we could find. And my VO2 max is finally back over 40!
I plan to use this trail a lot for long runs where I need to spend more than 4 hours on the move.
Ultrarunner, trans woman, autistic, lycanthrope.