@Eden@weirder.earth It looks like they might have done some weird, nonstandard notation of a Frobenius inner product. I don't know why they would have notated it this way, other than "oh, the dot can't be standard matrix multiplication [or perhaps they never use the dot for standard matrix multiplication], so hopefully they assume it's the inner product," but the result is consistent with it being an inner product.
gender
Okay, I think I'm getting closer to gender. I'm most likely enby. I don't quite experience dysphoria, per se. Instead, not wanting to be a boy is more dysmorphia. However, wanting to be a girl is euphoria. Like, there may be some dysphoria, don't get me wrong, but I think a not insignificant part of my body hatred is more not liking my body than not liking how male it is. Still trying to work this shit out, but we're getting closer, we think.
my brain, re: old but not like *really* old music jokes
This was just something stupid that came to mind when I realized there was a Colorado blvd. where mom's thinking of moving. I love my brain.
clothes
I got to thinking back on my arcade ahri costume at halloween and got to thinking "is there any reason I couldn't dress like that everyday?" Answer: no. no there isn't (heat notwithstanding). (Seriously, it was, like, almost 40°C here today.)
Granted, I could use the short shorts I was going to wear at halloween if it wasn't too cold, but that would require me to have some sort of confidence in myself (and it still doesn't solve the scarf issue).
Anyways, expect that next fall, i guess.
a ramble about creativity
it makes me full of sorrow when I read comments or replies to painting process videos online that read like "omg that's magic!"
I can understand watching a sped-up video makes it SEEM like magic, but I swear painting is something YOU can learn!
it's not an unknowable random force!
drawing, singing, dancing, whatever, you can LEARN how to do it!
Please don't ever assume something creative is out of your reach just because you don't know how
CW meta (lighthearted)
I feel like this thread should probably be tagged "spider discourse."
Phlebotomist. Cyberwitch. Artist. Fighter. Accidental breaker of computers.
Genderfluid enby. Pansexual/-romantic. Kitsune-kin (9-tailed)/Incubus-kin. Plural, with a bunch of headmates.
DAMNED PROUD ANTIFASCIST and an anarchocommunist.
Be warned: In theory, I post both lewd/NSFW and incredibly personal stuff.
(In practice, it's been a while, but who knows?)