Aura V. @auravulpes@computerfairi.es

While I've got your attention, I'd also like to remind you to take your meds if you need to, drink some water if you're thirsty, eat if it's been a while or sleep if it's that time where you are. Take care of yourself. I know it's hard, but you deserve it. You are worth every second you spend on self care for no reason other than the fact you are you.

Remember that I love you and want you to be happy and well.

With love,
Kat 💗

Your periodic reminder that white techbros have never created or invented anything of worth, merely stolen the work of the less privileged and turned it into a flaming pile of trash

Thinking about it, I did upload it into scraps as a "I wrote this, and someone will probably like it, but I'm not exactly *proud* of it" kinda thing. Still not sure if I should keep it up.

Of course, that story has a fav. Meanwhile, stuff that I care far more about and put love and care into get no love. *sigh*

I suppose that's how it is. Not how it ought to be, but how it is.

I would like to mention the that story is...not my best work. I wrote it a few years ago, so my writing isn't as good as it is now (assuming I've improved), it's about multiple subjects I have *zero* experience in, and it was kind of a perverse bit of porn for myself. Some sort of rape fantasy or something. I'm honestly surprised it got a favorite. (Honestly, I probably shouldn't have uploaded it, but I did, and now I'm not sure about removing it. Perhaps someone has some advice.)

So, I've accumulated a good deal of submissions to Furaffinity over the past 8 months or so, yet only a few have any faves. There's Pride, a picture of Aura with a bunch of flags that are incorrect and/or not applicable. There's Zoroark Fights Back, a story I wrote a few years ago about me getting violently raped by a Zoroark. And my most favorited post is...

Mii Channel (Abridged) (Abridged) but it's the nut button, a song I can't describe, only link: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/32370511/

Please don't "suggest" I leave Computer Fairies because of some technical reason *affecting you* that I wouldn't have noticed if you hadn't brought it up to me. I quite like it here. It's nice. (And we have such a good admin ) If that technical issue bothers you that much, you're more than free to stop interacting with me.

I just saw a girl throw her dad's hat into a tree, her dad retrieve it then tip her (safely) into a skate park structure, then her respond "This is why mom left you." Fucking. Savage. And probably unhealthy family dynamics.

So, after a bit over a month clean, the urge to start beating myself is returning. Does anyone know any good alternatives for the *sensation*? I'm looking for something like how with cutting you can snap rubber bands against your wrist. Something that gives me that same feeling as beating myself would, without being as self-destructive.

(Please don't just tell me to hit a punching bag or do something else or whatever. That's not what I'm looking for right now.)