Musings on my social life and skills
One of my current close friends? She was the one who started talking to me the first semester I was at UTA. By the next semester, we were sitting outside the ERB talking late at night. My current best friend? Her boyfriend and president of a club she attended. That's where I met him (after an invitation from her) and, well, 3 months later, he was moving in with me.
Musings on my social life and skills, violence ment
I don't make friends. I end up with them. Seriously, I have no real idea how to actually make a friend. I kinda just ended up with all my friends. I mean, hell, my best friend for the longest time? Back in third grade, when he first moved to my school, I did something to him out of spite that could have killed him. By 5th grade, we were friends, and by 9th grade, we were best friends. With someone I could have killed (sorta) on purpose.
shouting
I HAD TO INSTALL PLASMA MOBILE TO GET THE DAMN THING TO BOOT AGAIN! FUCKING PLASMA MOBILE! I HAD TO INSTALL FUCKING ALPHA SOFTWARE JUST TO GET MY PHONE BOOTING! HOW DID I SHIT THINGS UP THAT BADLY?!
You know, I see so many of you on here working on cool technology projects, doing all this cool stuff with hardware, and here I am, spending 5 hours just trying to get my phone to *boot* again. This has been a frustrating 5 hours with no good conclusion other than "Well, I can get calls and texts...I hope. Good enough for today." *sigh*
mh (-) but with some humour
You know, as someone with depression, I find Dan Olson's video "How to cook: Eggs with depression" to be amusing, but inaccurate. Honestly, it's more like:
1) Decide you want to cook eggs
2) Pull out pan
3) Decide you really didn't want eggs all that badly and go back to bed
alc
Seriously. Give me an hour, and I'll be right back to sober. What the fuck? Who designed this. That alcohol was disgusting and I can't even get anywhere near drunk off the amount I have?! Fucking hell.
alc
Me, pre-drinking: I should make sure I don't accidentally start going out and causing trouble if I get drunk.
Me, post-drinking: I wonder what my BAC is about anyways. *Checks* Are you fucking kidding me?
I had 15 mL of whiskey. It was disgusting. The highest my BAC'll get? ~0.02%. And that's a perfect storm situation for *45 mL*. My BAC probably topped out around 0.01%. I'm nowhere near drunk. According to the internet, I'm lucky to be feeling *any* effects whatsoever.
-, ph (genitalia)
Well, this is a morning. Fuckin', I'm pretty sure I've got a varicocele, and I'm currently lying in bed trying to deal with the pain from that rather than going to class. Additionally, my phone's updated to Android 10, which is completely throwing me off. The morning could be much worse, but fucking hell it could be better
random reminder about content warnings
a lot of people's use of content warnings is not to remove content from their feed. it's so they can see "oh, this is gonna be about depression, i should make sure i'm mentally ready to read it" before they do read it.
because filters to mute words don't have an option to place a CW over them automatically, filters are *not* always fitting for this - we want to see certain discussions of sexual assault, we just need that layer on top so that we don't run headfirst into a trigger unprepared.
Rating the corresponding virtues
Chastity: Not my kink. 1/7
Temperance: Meh. 3/7
Charity: Good, but hard to do. 5/7
Diligence: With *my* brain?! 2/7
Patience: see diligence, 2/7
Gratitude: Not a bad idea, 4/7
Humility: I try. Sometimes it's hard, sometimes I go too far. But, I try. 4/7
Rating the seven deadly sins
Lust: Need I even say anything? 7/7
Gluttony: Pretty good. Can get old after a while, but still pretty good. 6/7
Greed: Kinda shitty to others, but, honestly, this is the state the world is in now. 3/7 (*maaaaayyyybe* a 4/7 on a good day)
Sloth: I always enjoy sleeping in, though the not wanting to do stuff gets old, 4/7
Wrath: Rarely useful, 2/7
Envy: What am I supposed to do with this?! 1/7
Pride: Doesn't do much, though could make up for low self-esteem. 2/7
Phlebotomist. Cyberwitch. Artist. Fighter. Accidental breaker of computers.
Genderfluid enby. Pansexual/-romantic. Kitsune-kin (9-tailed)/Incubus-kin. Plural, with a bunch of headmates.
DAMNED PROUD ANTIFASCIST and an anarchocommunist.
Be warned: In theory, I post both lewd/NSFW and incredibly personal stuff.
(In practice, it's been a while, but who knows?)