wen @cyrridven@computerfairi.es

she wasn’t even treating me, she just happened to meet my stepmom and tried to make conversation

oh fuck I didn’t even talk about that time a different clinician in the same GIC outed me to my family

during my first appointment, I explained what had happend at my previous GIC, and she asked me a few questions – nothing untoward – took my blood, and told me she'd have me on hormones before the end of the month

I had to spend another year on a waiting list after getting to the UK – even though it was a year, I was lucky, this was in before the waiting lists grew vastly beyond that

at that time I was in the process of moving to the UK, so I just decided to give up

but in the end, it wasn't ANYTHING – the prescription never came through, and he stopped replying to my queries and my requests for appointments – I was ghosted by my psychiatrist

finally, the psychiatrist relented, and told me that I would be allowed to start HRT, but only anti-androgens, since he expected I might end up changing my mind – essentially, he was giving me puberty blockers – and said he wouldn't give me estrogen unless I could prove to him I could give up testosterone for at least six months – still, after all this time, it was SOMETHING, it was a win

they kept the interviews going for a year and a half: "can you draw yourself as a woman?", "where would you put yourself on this gender line?", "how do you use your genitals during sex?", "do people penetrate you anally?", "have you considered you might just be gay?", "have you considered you might just be autistic?", "have you considered this might just be a response to trauma?"

remember that, to them, an important part of "being a woman" was "wearing dresses and heels", so they were essentially requiring me to wear dresses and heels with a full beard for *months* – I'm not sure if they had any idea what danger that would've put me in

they required me to transition socially before they would offer me any sort of treatment, including laser, meaning they wanted me to transition with *a full beard*

they told me they had to ask this, because sometimes they got "these autistic types you think you can just change your name, and bam, you're a woman now"

at the GIC I was asked if, when I'd had transitioned, I would wear exclusively dresses and high heels, and – without pause – if not, why the hell not?!

TFW you just finished a long rant on 'local only' and find out your friends on other instances can't see it

when you waffle about, coming up with a multitude of reasons, instead of just saying you’re not into corbyn sexually ‘cuz you gay

Eating meat is too kinky for me, I'm just not into that whole snuff shit.

if you change your birth certificate, does that change your AGAB and thereby make you cis?

@egrasmed loved your keynote today!

does anyone have recommendations for any good pixelfed instances?