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@tahajin shameless mettaposting =000

@Tobi i know some folks who use `tig` and maybe that would be helpful?

unfortunately i only soothe my soul by aliasing the most-used commands and hoping that i don't mess anything up >.o

@chuxen@queer.party aaaaaaa!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

I'm blushing too 💜💙💚💛🍑♥️

@NogitsuneGabe yes!

this post was brought to you by oh my gosh i haven't had water for at least half the day, fill up a jug and i will chug

H Y D R A T E

@chuxen@queer.party me before realization: hrng why do all the trans people only talk about Trans Things

me after: Oh My Gosh This Is The Best Thing And I Can Not Shut Up

@NogitsuneGabe this is the most attractive thing, aaaaa 💜

beelllyyyyy rrrrruuuubsbssss

@NogitsuneGabe ahhhh yeah I gotcha, and I know there would be a struggle with this

like, can we bump nulls together, is that sexual? hahaha it is complicated

I don't have any bits on my fursona anymore because, actually that's way more comfy. but it still has potential??? I wouldn't consider them sfw but like There Will Be No Sexing

@Prower aaaaa you know where I'm coming from. it's nice to find resonance here that I didn't feel before!

I have hard preferences that put me in fetish space a lot. I love my preferences, I'll celebrate them. but they're not sexual, they're sensual. understand that, and we can be cool and weird and fetishy, if you want to call it that!

this isn't a callout or subtoot, it's me making amends with my feelings, and spelling out the result. it's genuinely been difficult to say out loud since forever.

LB: everything syl said!

I have a weird relationship with sexual feelings and it's nuanced and can be deeply uncomfortable. this has changed with time and damage. being more specific is asking me to write a novel. I can bullet it tho:

- no to: being sexual at me, asking me to be sexual
- yes: sensual experiences (cuddles, celebration of bodies)
- ok with: people being horny and sexual around me. encouraged even! y'all do what makes you happy
- you can always ask!

@NogitsuneGabe i guess though, imagining *what* they would do is kinda taking it out of yourself, projecting it, observing, and seeing what fits? maybe?

@NogitsuneGabe they’d probably deal with it like how i do now~ set expectations, get comfy, have cuddly funtimes. would definitely share asexual weirdness with. would squish butts with.

@NogitsuneGabe what a friggin CUTE

some people have a/genders that are like oil and water, they can coexist but not mix. some people (this is me) are like kool-aid mix and water, inseperable and ????

there's a whole spectrum of that, and includes lots and lots of variation!

@chuxen@queer.party me tooooo...

i heard a sentiment that was like, "well, i always acknowledged this was here, but i never paid attention to it or explored it"

like, that's a mood. when i learned the feelings were something significant, it's like my life began.

@Saxxon @chuxen@queer.party whoa! that's interesting! since i've only known you as Saxxon it's hard to imagine!

coming into empathy and understanding about this stuff is wonderful though 💖

@chuxen@queer.party of course, i've never changed main fursonas, but like, that's not to say that's a goal or makes me a gold star furry or something. x3

only really close friends have seen things, but the red panda got some play on my tumblr... OFMG i forgot i had a deer too, that i just ..... lllll looov vv v vv ee ee

all this stuff being tied up with my preferences + "fetishes" (omg these are v v recontextualized now) made it hard to see the forest for the fursonae

@chuxen@queer.party artfriends Stigmata and Sasha Jones give a neat talk on queerness and furries, and one of their ideas is, sometimes we have a "shadow fursona" that's a different gender and is used, temporarily or not, to explore ideas + feelings. their talk is good and they're always looking for input! (i owe them some! aljsdgjhasjkd)

i had a few: male but malleable (skunk), female but brash + crass (red panda), then a v soft friend who's none of the above (another tanuki! i just love them)

@chuxen@queer.party NEVER APOLOGIZE FOR FURSONAS~

that was REALLY NEAT actually and i appreciate it! i started going through and picking out some chars also, but sleep and work got in the way =x

(i wanna do this, i am similarly embarrassed x3)