tanuki~ @heytanuki@computerfairi.es

H Y D R A T E

I have hard preferences that put me in fetish space a lot. I love my preferences, I'll celebrate them. but they're not sexual, they're sensual. understand that, and we can be cool and weird and fetishy, if you want to call it that!

this isn't a callout or subtoot, it's me making amends with my feelings, and spelling out the result. it's genuinely been difficult to say out loud since forever.

LB: everything syl said!

I have a weird relationship with sexual feelings and it's nuanced and can be deeply uncomfortable. this has changed with time and damage. being more specific is asking me to write a novel. I can bullet it tho:

- no to: being sexual at me, asking me to be sexual
- yes: sensual experiences (cuddles, celebration of bodies)
- ok with: people being horny and sexual around me. encouraged even! y'all do what makes you happy
- you can always ask!

aaaaaa the OP-Z is announced for preorder, aaaaaaaaaaaaa

i do not have six hundred dollars US i do not have six hundred dollars US i do not have six hundred dollars US i do not have six hundred dollars US

seriously, i'm at a point where extraneous spending would get me in a bad situation, AND glares from partner and roomies, so i'll hold off. do i need more beep machines? yes. should i? not now.

aaaaaaaaaaaaa

roomie (whomst recently knows my pronouns) was like “hmm, i was going to say ‘how was your day good sir’ but that doesn’t fit anymore. what’s a neutral version of sir/madam?”

“did you ever play Dragon Age?”

“ah! ser it is, ser”

tbh the straightest and most cranky roomie is ending up being the most supportive. free shrugs!

okay i’m going to a wedding next month. extremely conservative part of the family. catholic church. screaeming.

but i think i have something i really like, or at least the top half of it.

@tahajin yoOOO i have a symbol for you https://aminonbinary.com/transistor.svg

courtesy of @mxsparks !

a long time ago, i drew a picture of tanuki wearing a shirt that said “when will science have an answer for me?”

i was being irreverent and poking fun at self-centeredness, or at least that’s what i told people

except now it’s more like, oh

fired: referring to me as the gender my features suggest

tired: referring to me as the gender i seem to be presenting as

wired: buy me several coffees and listen intently as i explain my gender for 3 hours

inspired: "im gay," i say. our immaterial eyes meet across an unperceptable manifold of n-dimensional space. digital information pours into organic processors. lifetimes of experiences harmoniously vibrate. 7 ms later, you nod, "same."

hired: you use they/them for me

cool things to call a nonbinary partner!
- theyfriend
- diamour
- datemate
- (if they're a computer or storage medium) datamate

these snoutingtons are now online

jeez. tonight, second time in a month that friends have broken off a long-term and seemingly stable relationship. it's getting to me, since in both cases i like both sides and

i'm dealing with some stuff myself, and i don't feel like i can be a very good support right now, i know i need to set boundaries and take care of myself. it doesn't feel great but

agh.

translation: Coda is super nice and good and they've made a tanuki feel welcome and valid a lot! i like them. 💖✨

is it subtoot a possum night? i want in on this

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✨:V beep 💖 ✨

secret/un-configurable keyboard shortcuts are ruining the lives of people who accidentally touch their keyboards while navigating things

goodness lots of Big Nonbinary Energy today and it is exac what I need tbh