i hate this feeling like i should be depressed abt something right now but i dont know what. my brains just looking around like "uh youre single, youre gonna die alone! and uh, oh yeah that friend hates you. what else, um, oh dysphoria! is that doing anything for you?"
@lizardsquid ya being kind to myself is a tall order, being cruel is basically a reflex at this point, like all the pathways in my brain are just wired to go directly to HATE, its like trying to forget how to ride a bike or something