when Natalie died, the hole she left was visible. Even though we didn't talk that often, I still saw her every day or two and her absence was noticable
With Lydia, I kept thinking "oh I need to get back in touch, have more of our fun conversations, play games together, jibe and jab, connect..."
and now that will never happen
I was thinking about the fun times we would have if I got back in touch.... but I never got a chance to
lydia, natalie, [suicide]
I never got to tell her how much she meant to me