Lizardsquid, maker of noises @lizardsquid@computerfairi.es

I think ultimately the biggest issue is that I can't imagine what happens beyond that moment.
Like, if they all like me back? How would we proceed?
What if only some of them like me back? What if someone really doesn't like me
What if admitting it in a group makes them feel less special and cherished than they would have if I confessed privately? It's this last one that I think is the scariest - that the act of confession might hurt someone I care about

The imaginary scenario:
- all of my in-person crushes and I are in the same room (actually legitimately a likely scenario!)
- one of them asks if I have a crush on anyone (unlikely)
- I confess to all of them at once and it goes well (improbable)

I know it isn't a good thing to imagine it going like this because it sets up these weird subconscious expectations of unlikely things...
But the intensity of the idea of that single moment keeps drawing me in

Earlier today I imagined a scenario that I can't stop thinking about, but I know I have to stop because it's going to break my heart

It's critter hour!!

It's so wimdy tonight

spent some time chatting with critters today, that was lovely

what if I was even softer...

Federate your brain

(I've been watching farscape)

what if were both aliens from different cultures who struggled to understand each other but still had crushes on each other?

lionfish venom is stored in the fins

I want to cuddle a mothperson...

awa!

...I've been ordering food a lot this week, and I know I *should* cook my own things, but.... everything I have in the house right now is either unappealing or would take more spoons than I have

weh, my extension that allows me to group tabs into trees of categories suddenly forgot the tree layout for 200 of my tabs,,,,

*quiet screeching*

wait, was there a birthday song BEFORE Happy Birthday was written, or did Happy Birthday originate a new cultural tradition?

good morning 💫

I'm so glad dragons are real.... can you imagine what life would be like if they weren't???