Esme Povirk @madewokherd@computerfairi.es
Joined Aug 2018
food (eating disorder-ajacent?)
@Sophie 🫂
food (eating disorder-ajacent?)
@Sophie I'm crying about this now. I'm glad I was too, and I think it protected me in some ways. But it still really sucked and left me with trauma to face now.
food (eating disorder-ajacent?)
@Sophie I think this is a recurring theme for me: I was never willing to misrepresent or doubt my experiences. I used to assume that the way I experienced the world was fixed and could never change. I also assumed others had similar experiences, and figured if everyone hid them nothing would change.
Unfortunately, kid me resented others for that. I'm sorry, I know you were doing your best like we all were.
food (eating disorder-ajacent?)
@Sophie I'm so sorry that happened to you. I think it's more understood by parents now that it's not ok to try to force their kids to eat specific foods/amounts.
I remember I just wouldn't try to eat or try to hide that I wasn't eating. To my kid brain this seemed perfectly reasonable - I wasn't going to lie but I didn't want them to go to extra trouble. I don't think I had to do that very long before my parents started working to accommodate my tastes.
Esme Povirk
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From last night's walk in Slavonski Brod (husband's home town).
food
I have hard-boiled eggs and I sliced one up and put it on my sandwich and why have I never thought of this before.
Esme Povirk
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Hi Everyone!👋
Meditation can help reduce stress and improve mental well-being. Here are three tips:
Set aside time each day to meditate
Try different types of meditation, such as guided or silent
Focus on your breath and let your thoughts come and go
Meditation is a great way to give yourself a little extra space in your day. It can give you a space to breathe and make better decisions.
Treat yourself to some calm.
@Sophie This relates so strongly to plurality for us. Some of us are good at feeling one or the other of those, some of us are good at emotionally supporting others in different ways, and some of us are not and if no one is there who knows how to give support then we can't do that even though we want to and we're learning to accept that.
plurality
How many people have scared and traumatized children hiding in their brains and don't know it?
plurality
We made contact with a syskid this week, and.. they must have been in here since the body was that age? Just, hiding until it was safe to come out? That's really weird to think about.
@Sophie We seem to have one sysmate that doesn't dissociate from the body the way the rest of us do. One of our theories about system origin is that the system is there so we don't have to experience that when it would cause sensory overload.
Esme Povirk
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This is getting a lot more attention than I expected for something I threw out there following an awkward call 😅 guess I'm not alone in this
The thing I fear is politics around minors getting affirming care. Every time I post a link to an article in our Pride channel, that feels devasting to me as someone who was forced through natal puberty, I pause and consider how many coworkers probably don't see that as a problem.
To many liberals, teens on blockers/HRT is a debate. An idea that concerns them because they see transitioning as something irreversible one could regret.
But this is a false choice. A choice that betrays their inner feeling, that being trans is less ideal than being cis, if being cis were an option. That it would be better to default -- a choice itself -- to forcing kids through natal puberty, if there's a chance they might be ok being cis. That forcing kids to watch their body develop in irreversible ways, even after they express dysphoria over it, is ok if it could just be a phase.
It's a debate to them, something they view as tricky, because they can't give up the idea that being trans is a last resort.
Being trans has been the most beautiful thing I've embraced in my life. I love the person I've become. The hard part is how hard the world wants to make it. My only regret is everything I didn't get to experience as my true self.
@Sophie [Iore] I think for me this is more of a consent thing? Like, if I know someone is ok with/enjoys being made fun of, then it doesn't bother me.
Maybe caring about this level of precision is also an autistic thing.
@Sophie [Dreamer] I'm pretty sure allistic people can learn and choose not to be assholes. But maybe it's harder for them to make the connections and easier to ignore them?
But, all things being equal, I strongly believe we all have the power to modify our attitudes over time. There's at least some choice in there.
Esme Povirk
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“Many autistic people report not being able to enjoy humour if it’s at somebody else’s expense.”
This is the kind of thing that makes me worried about people as a whole, I always figured this was true for everyone and the only reason people laughed at “punching down” jokes was because they didn’t properly understand what the joke was about. I don’t know how to feel about a world where people really do understand and just, find it funny anyway…
@Sophie My impression is more that they're happy *discussing and speculating* on things they could easily google. Not that I'd know what being allistic is like.
probably nonsense
People may just not be a very good model of humans.
@suricrasia I once made a Python script that was also a Bourne shell script that finds Python and execs itself with it. The Bourne shell portion starts with """true" so Python treats it as a multi-line string, and sh treats it as a command. sh doesn't care that it's followed by a bunch of invalid code.
Esme Povirk
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Look, I’ll admit it
I’m tired
of taking precautions
and I’m tired
of calculating risks
but I shall continue
for it is not so much
that I am experiencing
compassion fatigue
as that I am fatigued
by the lack of compassion
I see all around me.
Esme Povirk
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So my brain short-circuited on Sunday into Monday and the verbal aphasia is gonna be BAD for the next few days.
Let's talk about aphasia and circumlocution.
Joined Aug 2018
