Esme Povirk @madewokherd@computerfairi.es

@emerald You're not "really" plural nor are you "really" singlet. No one is. They're just models we use to work with a reality that's far more complex.

This one involves using your imagination far more than other models, perhaps, but imagination does reflect and change the reality.

Time for a nano-nap! /lays down for like 10 seconds

@b0rk This is very useful for large projects because unlike the long form it doesn't "disturb" files that changed between HEAD and otherbranch (due to otherbranch being out of date), which makes incremental rebuilds faster.

@b0rk Update your branch from upstream by applying all of your branch's changes on top of upstream.

Ash has decided to coin the term "chronogenic" for headmates that are in some way a result of time travel.

@emerald Having a grounding trigger helped with that, I think, when we remembered to use it. (It was originally intended as a "break any active trances" trigger. Apparently a lot of things are secretly trances?)

@emerald Definitely interacted heavily with system stuff for me. Some system members seemed to have direct control while others had to yell at a golem and hope it listens.

Sorry, I'm not sure how coherent I am today.

Where I'm vaguely ending up is: motivations that are not healing or empowering are, though possibly temporarily effective, not sustainable. And motivations that are healing or empowering make us inconvenient.

I've been wondering since noticing this was a thing: how much of neurodivergent "executive dysfunction" is because the things that motivate neurotypical folks don't really work for us, and the things that work aren't taught to us? Followed by a vague swirling mass of: what might be the reasons/motivations behind that?

@emerald The way I would make myself do that specific thing would be: stop, rest, cultivate love. Specifically love for my present and future self would get me moving. Which also means that it doesn't make much difference whether it's me or someone else that will experience the eventual benefits, i.e. "gratification" on any timeline doesn't play into it.

(Being able to generate love in that way took a lot of work though.)

@emerald I feel like even if the reward were immediate, it wouldn't actually influence my behavior.

@mavica_again Maybe we're designed to create dumb shit so no one can call us productive?

@viridian Yeah, that's one of the reasons we tend to do intra-system hypnosis instead.

Playing my own randomizer https://www.twitch.tv/madewokherd/

@viridian Is this approach still going to work when I start randomizing land unlock requirements (which means I have to calculate reachability)?