Esme Povirk @madewokherd@computerfairi.es
Joined Aug 2018
@wwahammy We can also get menopause-like symptoms from going off E
@thinkygames Wait where is there a bunny in HyperRogue?
lewd, silly
Tracking major game releases by the uptick in furry porn on e621.
hypno, self, rambling
@emerald I don't think pleasure works for me as a reward even when it does occur. Or maybe it's operant conditioning in general that doesn't seem to work..
mh stuff
@emerald It seemed to me that which solution it suggests depends on whether it's currently an unreasonable response, or a reasonable response to an unreasonable situation. I don't know your situation that well.
Like I have to imagine there are circumstances where one's effort is truly ineffective, and the solution is to redirect that effort to escaping those circumstances.
@emerald FWIW when I say "examining" I mean directly observing (and maybe even poking a bit), not analyzing.
What you're describing sounds like learned helplessness, not that I'd know much about that.
@emerald have you considered spending the 50 minutes examining what's getting in the way of your initiative, while you're doing that?
"So what made you decide to start speedrunning this game?"
"I was debugging a random crash, so I'd have to play for a few minutes at a time to make the crash happen. I couldn't save, so I'd try to go fast to see as much of it as possible."
re: cognitohazard? cognitoopportunity?
There's this feeling of mental "fog" that I haven't been experiencing lately, and I attribute that to working on this and keeping up with it.
Esme Povirk
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Processing the "titles without name" section (the "sir/ma'am" question) and it always makes me question my past survey choices, because it's always:
USA: I wish we had a good gender-neutral alternative to sir/ma'am!!!!!
Everywhere else: NO ONE says sir/ma'am, why is this question even on the survey
I am wondering how long I can do this before just making a formal statement that I'm removing the question and the USA need to just get over sir/ma'am on their own??
@b0rk I was merging a subtree of another repository into a different path on the destination.
This is the commit in question: https://gitlab.winehq.org/mono/mono/-/commit/89ec6bd4a09e015c0b4bb85e992ebbe3350274cd
@b0rk I had previously been "somewhat uncomfortable" (maybe cautious would be a better phrasing for how I felt?), but once I learned about git switch and git restore I stopped using git checkout and git reset entirely, so I answered that I never use it.
Esme Povirk
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I hope the Next Big Thing in technology is naps, so that we just start shoving naps into everything, absolutely everything.
Esme Povirk
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We wrote about Magical Literacy and Ai Psychosis last week. We've been thinking a lot more about the subject recently for no particular reason, decided to do a followup.
cognitohazard? cognitoopportunity?
Addendum: for me it can also be different forms of tiredness. Or the "brain residue" that making decisions seems to leave. And those require rest of a sort, but the rest can be made more efficient by directing it to the specific condition. Which isn't always equally easy and may take more time.
re: hypnosis //
@lioness This led to thinking for a long time that we were "bad at being hypnotized" or "not a good subject" or at least missing something important that would've made it more effective. Because there's still stuff that our brain is clearly capable of, but that we can't seem to do intentionally or via hypnosis.
re: hypnosis //
@lioness I've found hypnosis to mostly fail on this front. If it helps me do anything I can't do on purpose, that usually becomes something I can do on purpose.
re: cognitohazard? cognitoopportunity?
@emerald that is very relatable
re: cognitohazard? cognitoopportunity?
@emerald I've been finding that some rest is required to transition between things or into activity, it's just possible to do that very quickly if you focus it where it's needed
cognitohazard? cognitoopportunity?
This implies that executive dysfunction is a trance, and it is possible to find it and adjust it. At least for me. I don't know if the cause is the same for everyone, and it took a lot of work to learn how to do that.
Joined Aug 2018
