maple "mavica" syrup [6502] @mavica_again@computerfairi.es

@pencilears how simple were the lives of previous suicidal people you have met that all they needed was some water

@pencilears i am well fed and rested.

@pencilears this reply feels at least a little bit condescending

@tezoatlipoca i made it very clear. this is also linked in my bio, which nobody reads. https://computerfairi.es/@mavica_again/110573733959251340

i am so glad you agree

i sincerely want to just stop existing right now

@mos_8502 that's a drone number. i've done a little nes dev but only c. i have the capacity to understand assembly but no will to. i already did enough programming in my life, if you're asking if i want to be a programmer in a group i would rather not. which is why i emphasized pixel art and music

going to just delete and deactivate all of my accounts to see if anyone even notices

what's a community. never been in one. wasn't allowed to

i'm so fucking lonely

even when i say i'm suicidal on here i barely get a response. one day i could be gone and i feel like maybe a couple of people would go "shame. ah well"

everybody admires how outspoken i am. always from afar.

i wish i could get a lobotomy type procedure done to remove all my integrity and then maybe people would like me more for being agreeable

i had so many opportunities to keep my fucking mouth shut and not ruin a good thing if i had just let people have their way with me and then i wouldn't be lonely anymore but no i guess i always have to have an opinion

someone please form a scene group with me. or a game jam dev team or whatever. i do pixel art and music. i was never invited to anything and i am so fucking alone and i want a community to build stuff with.

working with open source

i am right and others are wrong.