maple "mavica" syrup [6502] @mavica_again@computerfairi.es

i just want to die honestly

i'm going to die alone

i'm tired of being a purely virtual being. being intangible is lonely

today is a wake up depressed day

i don't expect to ever be able to feel another person's touch in my lifetime and coronavirus has unfortunately nothing to do with it

at one point in the dream he picked me up because he was much taller than me and i woke up pretty much in tears because i'll never feel what it's like to be held like that outside of wishful thinking and dreams 💀

what do i do about years-long touch starvation when everybody i know is not even in my country

had a dream where when i was younger i briefly dated someone who later on went to become a very popular furry and when i met with him again years later because we were still in speaking terms his followers vandalized my car with "creepazoid" while i was in his apartment

or at least people i thought were my friends

and by people i mean my friends

i just, i really want to understand the reason why is it that people will gladly and very, very often share live2d vtubers but not any of my vtuber posts, just please tell me why is it you don't like my videos so i can improve

is it because i don't share enough easily digestible clips on twitter https://twitter.com/maplesbian/status/1385087285931257856

why do i have mutuals who share other vtubers but not me 😭 is it just because i'm not yet another live2d