maple "mavica" syrup [6502] @mavica_again@computerfairi.es

am i a bad vtuber? is that why my mutuals prefer to constantly retweet korone over my own efforts? should i stop being mutuals with them? can they read these subtweets?

i'm not in a good place and i'm extremely jealous and angry i don't get enough recognition let alone even friends talking to me sorry but i really don't care for the vtubers with hundreds of thousands of followers

i wish i could filter images and never see korone or other popular vtubers in my timeline again without having to turn off my friends' retweets

nobody is going to stop posting because of this. you couldn't give less of a shit. tomorrow is going to happen all the same without me. spare me the pity you might have just because you don't want to clean up the blood

"nobody here is a professional" "nobody owes you anything" GOOD THEN LET ME FUCKING WANT TO KILL MYSELF IN PEACE AND LET ME GO

i am so fucking tired of people telling me not to talk about wanting to kill myself, it literally makes me want to kill myself more because you all suck so much about handling someone so depressed they're willing to take their own life rather than deal with this shit

dear all cis(?) women who tell us we shouldn't want periods or large breasts because of back pain:

you can transition too.

potentially just about the most complicated design put through one of these Panasonic pen typewriters, SVG traced from raster line art in Illustrator and optimised with vpype. took about 15 minutes to plot

tktktktktktktktktktktktktktktktk

i wrote software to print SVGs with the Panasonic Penwriter line of typewriter plotters https://github.com/Lana-chan/pypenwriter #plottertwitter

sorry everybody! not feeling too hot tonight so no stream this week :(

next week we'll tackle another episode of yakuza kiwami 2! meanwhile if you haven't yet, consider catching up on our past recordings!
#vtuber #ENvtuber #vtuberEN
https://www.youtube.com/c/mavicatherobot

i'm sorry i'm trash. please let me have friends

i once joined a random furry discord with 200 people in it in which i had never been before and i immediately got banned from it and i had to press the staff to find out it was because "someone in the server recognized me and was uncomfortable with me"

i feel like i fucked up one too many interpersonal relationships with way too influential internet characters to ever have any friends with similar interests anymore because half the subset of the internet who participates in it hates me based on false narratives or something

i just want to be a part of a retro web movement along with other people but i don't know where to find the people or when i do they're not interested in joining my efforts

maybe i could host some sort of hosting service a la neocities but if i manually manage it all and manually veto users for abuse nobody will want to join, and if i leave it open it's going to get vandalized and nobody will want to join. also i have no idea how to set that up