maple "mavica" syrup [6502] @mavica_again@computerfairi.es

LOOK AT THIS WONDERFUL GIFT ART I JUST GOT FROM MY FRIEND @ProgramGamer@twitter.com 😭😭😭 i love it so much

did you know: robert palmer once recorded a cover of DEVO's girl u want and it sounds like an anime opening

https://youtu.be/VepXyXzfLhg

wang chung's "let's go" feels like the geocities of music videos

go watch it and tell me i'm wrong

i know it's shitty, selfish and you're already reaching out for that unfollow and block button. i don't know what to do with this either. i wish i wasn't this way but i'm so fucked up i consider suicide as an alternative to get anyone to care about me because i'm no good living

i need to talk about something really dark too, which i've already lashed out about here before

every time i see the public outporing of care for someone who's committed suicide, even if they didn't know them? that's one of my biggest reasons to feel suicidal.

actually i need to point out that instead of my followers caring about it what very often happens every time i'm in this state is that i *lose* followers (good riddance) so, like

please, never ever post again that it's ok to ask for attention if you don't actually mean it

this is not a rare occurrence for me to post on this website and i honestly wish more of my followers showed some care about it

ok maybe i'm not good at asking for attention, much less directly to people, because i've literally been called *an abuser* for simply asking for attention, so i have a lot of fucking trauma

here it is, me, asking for attention. i'm literally crying. i'm not doing well tonight.

telling people it's ok to ask for attention is only kind when you actually offer attention when they ask you instead of ignoring them

be well everybody. i'm sorry

not that a lot of people talk to me here if i stick around anyway, so, moot point

also haha super envious stuff on the tl today and i should probably hide away from social media when i need to be social the most just to socially self-harm

the reason i don't follow back a most of the time is that i'm super low self-esteem and a lot of y'all make me jealous and following then muting makes it so i don't see the notifications from y'all so if you follow me and i don't follow back that's why

hey

like i love my partners but the frustration that we can't bond over anything else is draining on us

i wish there was more to do together with your long distance relationships online that's not
- be on a call (we already do, almost 24/7)
- watch youtube videos (we already do)
- play online games (boring)