maple "mavica" syrup [6502] @mavica_again@computerfairi.es

CHURROS

look i'm drunk ok lindsay

she's trying so hard and getting nowhere

i'm trying toget my english-speaking girlfriend to say "chrurros" and it's adorably horrible

queer

i just submitted a pull request drunk

i keep forgetting TBT means throwback tuesday and not "thow back to"

TBT 2016 when i got to go to the Open Government Partnership event hosted in Paris and didn't get clocked once despite being only 1 year into HRT and hadn't had laser hair removal yet (picture from one of the event's official Flickr accounts)

LOOK AT THIS WONDERFUL GIFT ART I JUST GOT FROM MY FRIEND @ProgramGamer@twitter.com 😭😭😭 i love it so much

did you know: robert palmer once recorded a cover of DEVO's girl u want and it sounds like an anime opening

https://youtu.be/VepXyXzfLhg

wang chung's "let's go" feels like the geocities of music videos

go watch it and tell me i'm wrong

i know it's shitty, selfish and you're already reaching out for that unfollow and block button. i don't know what to do with this either. i wish i wasn't this way but i'm so fucked up i consider suicide as an alternative to get anyone to care about me because i'm no good living

i need to talk about something really dark too, which i've already lashed out about here before

every time i see the public outporing of care for someone who's committed suicide, even if they didn't know them? that's one of my biggest reasons to feel suicidal.

actually i need to point out that instead of my followers caring about it what very often happens every time i'm in this state is that i *lose* followers (good riddance) so, like

please, never ever post again that it's ok to ask for attention if you don't actually mean it

this is not a rare occurrence for me to post on this website and i honestly wish more of my followers showed some care about it

ok maybe i'm not good at asking for attention, much less directly to people, because i've literally been called *an abuser* for simply asking for attention, so i have a lot of fucking trauma

here it is, me, asking for attention. i'm literally crying. i'm not doing well tonight.