maple "mavica" syrup [6502] @mavica_again@computerfairi.es

what's a community. never been in one. wasn't allowed to

i'm so fucking lonely

even when i say i'm suicidal on here i barely get a response. one day i could be gone and i feel like maybe a couple of people would go "shame. ah well"

everybody admires how outspoken i am. always from afar.

i wish i could get a lobotomy type procedure done to remove all my integrity and then maybe people would like me more for being agreeable

i had so many opportunities to keep my fucking mouth shut and not ruin a good thing if i had just let people have their way with me and then i wouldn't be lonely anymore but no i guess i always have to have an opinion

someone please form a scene group with me. or a game jam dev team or whatever. i do pixel art and music. i was never invited to anything and i am so fucking alone and i want a community to build stuff with.

working with open source

i am right and others are wrong.

i'm making a cool thing for the cardputer and i don't want to open source it because i've been burned in the past with my code being taken and done stuff to that i didn't want to and i just don't want to share my code. but i'm getting hounded that it needs to be open sourced so now i'm not even going to release binaries and nobody will get to play with it 🤷‍♀️

i hate it here, man

activitypub was a mistake, but not a bigger mistake than microblogging in of itself

mastodon: replies don't federate so click through a post or profile to see the complete information

mastodon admins: got it (disables any public reading of posts or profiles without a logged in account, preventing this)

*shop

i am really, really angry and want to physically take it out on some very real people with very real blunt objects right now