maple "mavica" syrup [6502] @mavica_again@computerfairi.es

i had angstrom linux running on an hp ipaq a few months ago and that was the most fun i had with a linux system in about a decade

man i look at screenshots of old linux porting projects (like https://linux-7110.sourceforge.net/screenshots.shtml) and it's so crystal clear to me that today linux simply is no longer a fun (or even for the most part functional, highly depending on your hardware and usecase) system

if linux was still freely customizable and quirky like this i would still like it today, imo

i am so glad you agree

i sincerely want to just stop existing right now

going to just delete and deactivate all of my accounts to see if anyone even notices

what's a community. never been in one. wasn't allowed to

i'm so fucking lonely

even when i say i'm suicidal on here i barely get a response. one day i could be gone and i feel like maybe a couple of people would go "shame. ah well"

everybody admires how outspoken i am. always from afar.

i wish i could get a lobotomy type procedure done to remove all my integrity and then maybe people would like me more for being agreeable

i had so many opportunities to keep my fucking mouth shut and not ruin a good thing if i had just let people have their way with me and then i wouldn't be lonely anymore but no i guess i always have to have an opinion

someone please form a scene group with me. or a game jam dev team or whatever. i do pixel art and music. i was never invited to anything and i am so fucking alone and i want a community to build stuff with.

working with open source

i am right and others are wrong.

i'm making a cool thing for the cardputer and i don't want to open source it because i've been burned in the past with my code being taken and done stuff to that i didn't want to and i just don't want to share my code. but i'm getting hounded that it needs to be open sourced so now i'm not even going to release binaries and nobody will get to play with it 🤷‍♀️