maple classic™ 
coming out, slurs
oh are we doing coming out stories
when i first came out as bi, my parents avoided the subject
when my mom found a skirt in my clothes she wouldn't look me in the eye for a week
when i came out as trans the first thing my dad told me was "not all bad people are faggots but all faggots are bad people" (he used stronger wording i have no real translation for)
when i locked myself in the bathroom and started crying for hours my mother threatened to throw me out of home
coming out cont., sui
my parents only stopped actively hating me after an unsuccessful suicide attempt
after one year or so hrt my mom finally always used the right name and pronouns for me
my grandmother, who i live with, is still a bigot
the rest of my family is a mixed bag
things are better now but i can't let go of the past
coming out cont., transition
and people keep telling me "but you're so pretty" "but i thought you were cis" and in my head it amounts to nothing
because it takes a tremendous effort every morning to look half as good as i wish i could just to be psychologically able to leave the house or post a selfie and there are still days i get clocked on the street even then
coming out cont., transition
@squirrel *offers hugs*
coming out cont., transition
@squirrel You deserve lots of hugs, seriously. *hugs firmly*
coming out cont., transition
i already knew what i wanted since i was 16 but it wasn't until i was 21 that i got to start hrt. i already knew back then i should at least be on hormone blockers. my mom wouldn't let me.
i watched, already aware, puberty destroy every hope i had of being myself physically
i will never stop regretting not having been able to start sooner and avoid everything that still pains me to this day every single morning when i look at the mirror to shave