Harp the Wigglytuff @wigglytuffitout@computerfairi.es

anyway after reading this polygon article https://www.polygon.com/2019/6/7/18255691/sea-of-thieves-player-interaction-hewwo i almost want to play sea of thieves

more importantly, if i were any good at shooters, i almost want to do a tour of call of duty/etc. and just do this. it would be like throwing a cat into a crowded hot tub. the amount of sheer rage that would result would be fucking hilarious, just with one HEWWO??? MISEW SNIPEW??? PWEASE DON'T SHOOT?? HEWWO?????

i am going to start selling my services as a Self-Care Domme

it's like findom or some shit except instead of bullying people into giving me money, i bully them into taking basic care of themselves. we don't even do anything sexual, i just incessantly nag them to make appointments with their therapist and go take a shower

got my face mask on, got my evening meds, got a sense of victory for being able to camp a house and buy it in ffxiv (which altho "mine" will quickly become "the guild's"),

and got my drink all over the floor because i fumbled it Whoops.

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ah yes, seeing heavy allegations come out against a person that you're fairly certain you put on mute/block awhile ago for Unidentified Bad Feelings....

GUESS THE OL' GUT FEEL NASTIES STILL GOT IT FOLKS

"wow harp," you may be saying, "you may say you try not to hold grudges but you're sure acting like the american adaptation of that japanese horror film Ju-on right now" and to that i say SSSHSHSHSHH ... SHHH

and just to complete the trifecta of Why I Hate Him, he constantly complained that rp was dead because it wasn't being done open-world. his idea of events for this was to demand people come rp on sundays in open-world taverns and just stand there doing nothing in the corner, often afk, if he attended at all.

meanwhile i put together a blockbuster rp market in open-world with prizes, dancing event, etc. and whaddya know, he never even expressed a lick of interest.

so fuck that dude lol

ofc this was the same dude who also said that if you had your character have anything not represented by the in-game model - a tattoo, freckled shoulders, scar on their knee, different body type, whatever - you were a bad rper and breaking their immersion

so he is still cordially invited to eat my entire plus-sized catgirl's ass

me: well i try to be a good person who doesn't hold grudges

also me: THE PERSON I ARGUED WITH LIKE 2 YEARS AGO WHO SAID PIZZA IN FFXIV RUINED HIS IMMERSION despite us having as in-game items flatbread, tomato sauce, cheese, and several other items of italian cuisine like spaghetti pescatore, because he argued that if it is not an in-game item it cannot exist due to lore CAN SUCK MY DICK

combed thru my ffxiv blog and found the "sea shanties for thots" spotify playlist someone made and god bless if it ain't my character perfectly https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2DsYfCPWDxZtFzHRj9mO4h?si=vCUfw5-HSj2etVzN3bkuYA

gold saucer? i think you mean, gold BUNCLE #ffxiv

anyway i think the Life Lesson for here is that if anyone says they're enlightened, they're tryin' to sell you some shit (at the very least, the concept they have it figured out, if not more bull)

part of that humility is recognizing that i DON'T know it all. in fact, by being a cishet white middle-class woman, there's some shit i ain't ever gonna know y'all! i will never have first-hand experience on a whole bunch of stuff! that is just how it works!

so i don't claim to know it all. because i don't.

i sit down. i listen. i do not let ego override people's right to live. and i hope that when i do screw up, i can take it on the chin and be better.

the ONLY way for me to be a good ally here is to just accept that someday, I AM GONNA FUCK UP. and i accept it by knowing that even though my feelings are going to hurt, even though the knee-jerk reaction is to fight it, MY MOMENTARY UNCOMFY IS WORTH MUCH LESS THAN PEOPLE'S WHOLE GOT DANG LIVES.

so i operate with the humility to realize that i'm going to screw up, AND when i do, i gotta get a ladder out n get over myself.

listen, if you say you're for dismantling some system that oppresses people as an ally, an then refuse to examine your own shit that you have inevitably learned from that system, that's not being an ally

i am cishet. i am white. i am middle-class. and you know what that means? I Sit The Fuck Down, Shut Up, And Listen.

i also accept and know that it is not a matter of if i screw up, but WHEN.

@HerraBRE but if you ain't willing to own your shit and work on it -

hey.

don't call yourself a feminist, yeah?

I Listen And Accept Input Only When Convenient And Know Better Than Silly Women is not feminist. it is, in fact, anti-feminist, as it's just the same ol' same ol' shit.

you can do that if you want. but know what you're doing.

anyway, to answer your question: yep i do feel better, thanks. it means i get to write you off now lmao. ciao.

@HerraBRE however i guess this confirms me to be right lol - why would the Enlightened Dude of Dudeliness dare deign to examine his own shit when he could throw his nose in the air and continue being superior to these idiot hoi polloi who are actually, gasp, *angry* about shit (how boorish!)?

idk man, it's up to you if you wanna actually own your shit and improve and be a decent person, or just wrap yourself up in more layers of smugness on account of always being right.