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New on the Secret Area: "Halo with chips" has been found.

A dumb back of the box quote from Maxim magazine promoting a poker video game had become a small meme. I wanted to find out where it came from.

Likes, shares and comments are really appreciated. asecretarea.com/2025/02/21/hal

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fursona reveal!! 

Hey, remember when I was talking about wanting a cat fursona?

Well, thanks to a picrew, and a friend who was willing to help, it's now a reality.

Say hi to Tonya! She's soft, cuddly, and friendly!

(art by Megahand6 on birdsite)

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ps visit my website it has cool dumb video game things

I made a new post yesterday to cover devolver digital's silly advergame

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New on the ol' Secret Area Patreon: It's RTC-3057 for Doom.

Doom mods are one of my favorite things to write about. So let's look into one that was taking use of the then-new ZDoom in 2003.

Available now at $1 or more: patreon.com/posts/rtc-3057-for

Remember that 2000s era when orchestral arrangements of classic video game music was in vogue?

I know it's still a thing now but this seemed to be a common trend back then, kind of as a way to make video games seem more "legitimate," I guess?

Might be worth exploring more

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Somehow over the years I grabbed an album called "The Greatest Video Game Music."

It's a smattering of the hits (Mario, Zelda, Final Fantasy) and a few questionable additions (Advent Rising? GTA4? Splinter Cell: Conviction??) but it's an alright orchestral arrangement of video game songs

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New on the ol' Secret Area Patreon: It's RTC-3057 for Doom.

Doom mods are one of my favorite things to write about. So let's look into one that was taking use of the then-new ZDoom in 2003.

Available now at $1 or more: patreon.com/posts/rtc-3057-for

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video games were invented in 1975 when video kojima tried to make a movie and accidentally added Buttons

Dr. Weird: Gentlemen, behold!

Korn!

(the tall garage door opens. jonathan davis appears, and is randomly scat-singing.)

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Been playing a few 2000s Doom mods, back when people started learning how to script in stuff like ZDoom. It's pretty amazing stuff even now

A shame some of these are kinda broken now in more recent GZDoom versions, so I have to keep a copy of ZDoom 2.8.1 handy just for compatibility's sake

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I am listening to a Crosby, Stills & Nash compilation.

Does this mean I'm old? :blobtongue:

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Hey folks, we just had a bunch of big expenses come in during a time when we don't have any income due to lack of work and a gap in my disability payments. if anyone can help us make up the deficit and put food on the table and keep us supplied with vital meds, it would be really appreciated. please boost if you can't donate, reach really matters gofund.me/580dbcb4

So I'd been mentioning this Redbook CD audio project on a few gaming community discord servers I'm on and got a bunch of contributions from friends and colleagues, and now it's up to almost 50 games

I think once I've gotten about 100 or so entries between multiple consoles, I'll share the list

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some people might benefit from a reminder of Mira Bellwether's piece on beauty as a trans woman 

Dec 29 / 2019

If you have had to put off trauma for decades just to survive in a kind of perpetual crisis mode, you may find that when you stop doing that it suddenly feels like pain is coming from nowhere. You were just kicking it down the road.

This is what I am pretty sure is up with transitioning and then realizing how incredibly awful it feels to be treated like something you're not: you probably didn't have a point of contrast before with which to compare your everyday experience.

In other words your lungs started to hurt when you stopped running from the truth, but the pain is from the decades of running.

I was talking to my sister today about the trauma that often comes of the first few years of transitioning. So much of it is really reckoning with and facing a lifetime of being taught that what you are - a trans person - is a terrible thing to be.

Trans girls who have been out for not long spend a lot of time obsessing over perceived "failures" that are really just differences between us and cis women. That's painful because we were never taught that there were other ways to be a woman, just "failure."

But when we start spending time around each other this beautiful thing happens. The realization dawns, sooner or later, that the women you're spending time with are truly and incredibly beautiful.

As you get used to the company of your kind, you start to understand in your
heart that you are a kind. It's a LOT like "the ugly duckling."

It goes against some of the most conventional and bad advice about love out there, that love begins with loving yourself. It doesn't, it begins with loving others and then accepting that you deserve that love too.

Once you get there, REALLY get there, looking back is hard sometimes because you remember what it felt like to constantly compare yourself unfavorably to both cis men AND cis women. And bc you remember only being able to see cis beauty as beautiful.

You don't know HOW to appreciate a swan even if you're starting to suspect that you are one. No one taught that to you socially or otherwise, and it feels awkward to be learning it so late. It can feel unfamiliar and strange to look at other trans women and SEE our beauty.

There are so many fears: am I becoming deluded? Why didn't I see this before? What does it say about me? Am I a chaser now?! (You're not, please let that worry go ASAP.)

What's happening is that your mind is broadening, to put it simply. Raised in a sexist and misogynist world, we're taught that seeing beauty in women outside of a very narrow bandwidth is shameful, wrong, even suspicious.

You're not going to stop seeing the differences between you and cis women. But if you let yourself, you can START to see the beauty in your own kind. And that has the potential to be one of the most powerful and beautiful revelations in your life.

But don't let anyone tell you that you have to accept the hand you were dealt and love it forever, and that means never changing. You can trade in one or two of your cards and still love yourself, other trans women, and cis women too.

People grow and change, and trans people can grow and change even more. There's nothing wrong with you for knowing that you want full breasts, or a thick ass, or admitting that you want your crotch to be different.

Think of it as customization.

And those women are beautiful too. Those women who you might be a little afraid of becoming. Cis girls go through this earlier and differently but they go through it too. Because of course you're afraid of becoming a woman in a world that hates women.

Practically every memoir of girls' teen years gets into those feelings. What does it mean to look at a mature sexual woman and know that's what you're becoming? It's rarely emotionally simple or straightforward.

We get that later, and with a ton of social pressure to
not change. Cis women will talk to you sometimes and you'll realize this woman isn't talking about my relationship to my breast size, she's giving a voice to her own self-doubts and insecurity.

Anyway, it's very early. Love your sisters, all of us, and all of them. It will pay you dividends in love for yourself and in understanding that you're something special in this world.

-Mira Fucking Bellwether

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I have a bunch of various ideas in the early stages and I gotta make sure I actually follow through and make them become a reality, not get burnt out and have a dozen unfinished/WIP projects

I've repeatedly start a project, get burnt out, then abandon it, so I wanna curb that habit if I can.

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y'all think there's an audience for reviews of old TV and
Film soundtracks?

I've been on a film/tv/game soundtrack kick as of late, almost wanna write about some of these (the ones where a bunch of songs are put together as an "official soundtrack," not isolated film scores)

music, uspol mention 

eff Don Henley, but Dirty Laundry is still a rather fitting song these days

I remember that song being used on Outfoxed, that Robert Greenwald documentary about Fox News and its terrible journalism, made back in 2004.

Thanks to that documentary I can't hear the song without thinking about right-wing mainstream news

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