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Sometimes you desperately want to hurt yourself or even kill yourself just go have any agency over your pain for once, to be the one who decides how much pain you're in and why just for a bit. It's certainly not healthy but it feels like the only chance I'd ever get to have any control, and I can't say I'm not constantly tempted

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You can put together any image of how hard a disabled persons life is in your head you like, but it won't be remotely accurate unless you understand just how bored, how empty constant pain makes you, how drained and apathetic you can get when no effort makes it go away, and you'd rather just lay in bed all day because if you're going to be in pain and unable to do anything, you might as well be doing it laying down.

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I'm in pain. I'm going to be in pain tomorrow. Probably from the moment I wake up. I'll get out of bed anyway, make coffee, and wait for the rest of the day until there's something to do. I'll be in pain that entire time. I won't play a game, I won't draw, or build, or paint, because I can't, the pain over rides every other muscle movement I'd make, saps my ability to focus on anything.
I don't have a point to this. I'm too tired to really be angry about this anymore. I'll just keep waiting

i'm in too much pain, i don't want to be here, i don't know what to do. i get up every day and do nothing except hurt and i'm feeling lost. when do i just give up on getting out of bed, when do i start increasing my painkiller doses until i can't feel anything

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nothing will make you feel more broken or unsalvageable than crying from pain until your head hurts and still feeling like the tears won't stop

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sorry if the wording in this comes off as overly rude or impatient but you see i'm tired and cranky and have been in constant, agonizing pain for a long time, and i really don't have the energy to sugarcoat things

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hey there, it's so i'm going to be humbly asking for any help at all that people can give to help a disabled trans woman get married to her partner, despite the awful costs involved due to visas, gofund.me/580dbcb4 .
Boosts are welcome, likes are not, if you don't care to at least increase the range of this, don't bother interacting

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Watching any non-Sportsnet baseball broadcast really shows how all the other teams' broadcasting teams fucking suck. They can't even get players names right. Half the time they're not even showing game footage, they just cut to the guy making food at the park.

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Hey please go pay attention to @mavica_again it could really use people being around and talking to it, not just likes, please appreciate the robot

Hey please go pay attention to @mavica_again it could really use people being around and talking to it, not just likes, please appreciate the robot

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someone please form a scene group with me. or a game jam dev team or whatever. i do pixel art and music. i was never invited to anything and i am so fucking alone and i want a community to build stuff with.

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