Millie @Atatra@computerfairi.es

You can put together any image of how hard a disabled persons life is in your head you like, but it won't be remotely accurate unless you understand just how bored, how empty constant pain makes you, how drained and apathetic you can get when no effort makes it go away, and you'd rather just lay in bed all day because if you're going to be in pain and unable to do anything, you might as well be doing it laying down.

I'm in pain. I'm going to be in pain tomorrow. Probably from the moment I wake up. I'll get out of bed anyway, make coffee, and wait for the rest of the day until there's something to do. I'll be in pain that entire time. I won't play a game, I won't draw, or build, or paint, because I can't, the pain over rides every other muscle movement I'd make, saps my ability to focus on anything.
I don't have a point to this. I'm too tired to really be angry about this anymore. I'll just keep waiting

i'm in too much pain, i don't want to be here, i don't know what to do. i get up every day and do nothing except hurt and i'm feeling lost. when do i just give up on getting out of bed, when do i start increasing my painkiller doses until i can't feel anything

nothing will make you feel more broken or unsalvageable than crying from pain until your head hurts and still feeling like the tears won't stop