Ren - Moved to chitter.xyz @Nine@computerfairi.es

I have this problem on games where there's "optional" pvp too. I adored Bloodborne and the entire Souls series of games and completed them all but ... any time I got invaded in the Souls games it was horrid. I hated it. my chest got tight, I got shaky, and it didn't stop until quite a while afterwards. I'd inevitably get killed in a really inconvenient place because I just can't compete when I'm like that. I can't stay calm despite my best efforts.

Without co-op I'd never gotten through it.

that's not how you spell logarithmyuc

... lgoa...

EXPONENTIALLY fuck it

...

every so often I see Quake 3 Arena and whatnot on steam or wherever

and Unreal 3/4/2004 etc

and I mean I OWN UT2004 and still have it installed I think with a ton of mods and stuff but

I love the idea of playing it, and sometimes I do? (botmatches only)

but...

I know it would be more fun with people, online, but the problem with that is...

as soon as real people are involved and it's competitive anxiety spikes like a logarythmic scale and I start low grade panicking and it's no fun.

also thanks to a conversation on discord with @kyra i am now calling funko pops "fuckno pops" due to an altogether far too wonderful typo

i;m sorry i have to post this now

big dictionary energy

oh i called the doctor!

aaand I have an appointment in a week or two to talk to a doctor in person about getting a referral to see a specialist. i hope.

which will be nice because my brain isa goddamn meeessssssssss

wait shockwave flash needs updating? I thought they ditched that

@maple i just saw your display name and omg it's so good