Aura V. @auravulpes@computerfairi.es

Also, as a fun Aura fact, in this note I remark that I don't know whether the missing chunk from the right ear and the notch in the left ear were gonna be a permanent thing or just a thing from some images I'd drawn of 'em with regards to my depression. A year and a half (give or take) later, and I think we have our answer: Aura just has a notch in her left ear and a torn-off right ear. So, yes. Fun facts for you.

Okay, fun Aura fact of the day: Going through old notes of the day, I have found the *exact* date I went from vague idea of enderfox to Aura as my fursona: 11 February 2019.
"In other news, my fursona's name is now Aura Vulpes. He's [sic] also bluer than he was before."
So, I guess Aura's birthday is officially 11 Feb. Woo!

One final thing in that note: a remark about how "subzero temperatures are cold, especially if the wind is 9 kt from around 10°." Yeah. 4.5 m/s windows from the north are pretty cold when it's below 0°C out.

From the same note:

"In the name of the Holy Trinity of the Top Slice, Bologna, and the Bottom Slice, we pray. Amen."

Fun fact: I used to refer to myself as an "actual furfag." In fact, here's an image of my fursona before I got Aura:

(I still kinda want that shirt.)

From an old daily note:
"Scientific-grade furfag."
"What on earth is a 'scientific-grade furfag'?!"
"One that's suitable for experimentation."

Yes, this goes for jacking off and fingering too.

"So with bass playing, as it is with everything else: keep a straight wrist."

So, yeah. Not really a point to all this, and I didn't really mean to go on so long. This was supposed to be a joke about infinite scrolling and it turned into a thread. Maybe I should uninstall Tusky or put a time limit on it, but eh. Whatever.

This is especially bad when I wake up. Up til recently, I'd grab my tablet, which runs Android 4.4 and thus can't run Tusky. So, I'd scroll through using the web UI then stop when it got too laggy. Now I grab my phone, which can run Tusky, and so I lay there for an hour just scrolling the federated timeline (not to mention everything else I check).

You know, the thing I least like about Tusky compared to the web UI is that it doesn't get super laggy as I scroll the federated timeline. Now, you may be thinking, "But Aura, that sounds like it's better! How is that bad?" Well, I'll tell you. On the web UI, the lagginess gives me a good stopping point. When it gets too laggy, close the tab and move on. On Tusky, I can keep going and going. Thus, I do. And, thus, I waste more time there. Ergo, it's worse.

And, hey, if you know of a way to make something kinda like a bigger pizza roll but with a soft, kinda doughy crust, let me know!

Okay, sudden u-turn:

Does anyone remember FarmRich brand pizza pockets? They were this like triangular thing of soft dough stuffed with sauce and cheese. I remember loving them so much as a kid, but they don't seem make them anymore. I can't be the only one who remembers these right?

(Incidentally, if you do remember, you wouldn't happen to know of a recipe for something similar, would you?)

Basically, I guess the conclusion I've come to with this entire thread is "fuck around and find out." Mess with shit and see what happens. You'll learn something, even if you have to learn the hard way.

And, importantly, it's okay to change your mind, even about stuff that you might feel you shouldn't change your mind on, like your gender once you've started hormones. It's okay to be wrong about yourself. As long as you really are finding a truer version of you.

It's the same with psychiatric meds. You gotta find out the hard way whether they work. If they do, good! If they don't, well, we know what *doesn't* work.

I mean, it's like me trying to figure out if any meds can help with the immense pain of having a hard shit that won't come out while the shit behind it's turned to diarrhea. Like, I tried bismuth subsalicylate. It doesn't work. Good to know! I tried a laxative as a way of heading it off. That only made it happen! Now I know *not* to use the rest of the bottle of laxative! Sure, finding these out sucked, but hey. We learned.