Aura V. @auravulpes@computerfairi.es

Thinking about it, I did upload it into scraps as a "I wrote this, and someone will probably like it, but I'm not exactly *proud* of it" kinda thing. Still not sure if I should keep it up.

Of course, that story has a fav. Meanwhile, stuff that I care far more about and put love and care into get no love. *sigh*

I suppose that's how it is. Not how it ought to be, but how it is.

I would like to mention the that story is...not my best work. I wrote it a few years ago, so my writing isn't as good as it is now (assuming I've improved), it's about multiple subjects I have *zero* experience in, and it was kind of a perverse bit of porn for myself. Some sort of rape fantasy or something. I'm honestly surprised it got a favorite. (Honestly, I probably shouldn't have uploaded it, but I did, and now I'm not sure about removing it. Perhaps someone has some advice.)

So, I've accumulated a good deal of submissions to Furaffinity over the past 8 months or so, yet only a few have any faves. There's Pride, a picture of Aura with a bunch of flags that are incorrect and/or not applicable. There's Zoroark Fights Back, a story I wrote a few years ago about me getting violently raped by a Zoroark. And my most favorited post is...

Mii Channel (Abridged) (Abridged) but it's the nut button, a song I can't describe, only link: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/32370511/

@troubleMoney we're "outdated and lacking several privacy/security features." Which, you know, I'm aware of (for the first part) and really haven't noticed (for the second part). like, sorry it's inconveniencing you, but I'm not switching instances because of it

Please don't "suggest" I leave Computer Fairies because of some technical reason *affecting you* that I wouldn't have noticed if you hadn't brought it up to me. I quite like it here. It's nice. (And we have such a good admin ) If that technical issue bothers you that much, you're more than free to stop interacting with me.

I just saw a girl throw her dad's hat into a tree, her dad retrieve it then tip her (safely) into a skate park structure, then her respond "This is why mom left you." Fucking. Savage. And probably unhealthy family dynamics.

So, after a bit over a month clean, the urge to start beating myself is returning. Does anyone know any good alternatives for the *sensation*? I'm looking for something like how with cutting you can snap rubber bands against your wrist. Something that gives me that same feeling as beating myself would, without being as self-destructive.

(Please don't just tell me to hit a punching bag or do something else or whatever. That's not what I'm looking for right now.)

@V Is this the start of a tf story? I feel like it's the start of a tf story.

@Sapphicgiraffic@snouts.online They're common, like ebola in parts of Africa a few years ago, the plague in medieval Europe, or easily preventable diseases among the children of anti-vaxxers

For your viewing pleasure, a doodle I did back in my mathematical methods of physics class underneath an example problem we did

(cw: eye contact)

@mavica I mean, I'm now doing the same, so I'd say it's going pretty well