Lizardsquid, maker of noises @lizardsquid@computerfairi.es

(continued) until I finally realised that I wasn't ace a year or two ago, and now I'm sitting here thinking "man... I really wish I could have sex..."

but the only people I know right now are cisgender gay dudes (who either aren't interested in me or are chasers and can fuck off) and a few trans people, most of which I don't know well enough.

There's only one person who I could ask... and I don't know if I should...

it's weird that a few years ago I really didn't want to have sex ever because of dysphoria + 10 years of telling myself "I'm a good christian, and won't have extramarital sex"

combine this with realising I had same sex attraction to the same degree as "opposite" sex attraction, which I decided meant that I had to be asexual (a good christian wouldn't be gay...)

anyway the result is that I thought I was ace (cont.)

mmmmm...

look at this delicious table... https://computerfairi.es/media/BDRNMoVF7qAgcFSfgmg

one of the things I'm doing with dapiica is messing with the boundaries of copulas.

For example, many sentences that require a copula in english (for example "I am interested in fish") instead use a verb in dapiica ( 'kaniputomano', lit. "I fish-interested")

and in other places, the copula is actually a circumclitic: 'ŋiidapiica dacaponoba' "dapiica is a language", with ŋii- and -oba being the copula

LB: as a linguist, I don't judge languages.

As a user of english, though, "to be" is really annoying

I had a shower, and I'm cooking a sandwich, and I'm feeling better!

yes! https://computerfairi.es/media/dqZgg2Htw4Lp9002fnI

I wonder if steam will let me run half life and black mesa at the same time...

there are 2 people on my timeline with very similar icons, and I keep getting them confused and I'm scared that I'll use the wrong name/pronouns for one of them by accident

nooooo

I just realised the "I'm hungry" "hi hungry, I'm dad" joke can't work in dapiica

::(

(it can't work because you don't say "I am _name_", you say "I name myself _name_")

Exhibit A: the industrial sized freight lift in a massive empty room with no way to get freight into
Exhibit B: a normal lift, in a reasonable room, in a reasonable location in the room

(yes, this is the SAME area)
https://computerfairi.es/media/3BqLjzOryESlERKgmy0 https://computerfairi.es/media/oc8eHQzBesFn_5_enLk

okay, played some more black mesa:

there's a bunch of stuff they redesigned really well - for example, in the original there's a short section with a maze of vents that you have to find your way through, and it was always frustrating and confusing.

in black mesa, there's just 1 vent and it takes you straight to the next area.

a lot of other areas have been redesigned to make more sense... let me actually make a comparison picture real quick...

I really need to get some homework done, but I'm just feeling depressed...

good afternoon, everynyan!