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more bugs more bugfixes #webgbcam #gameboycamera #gameboyprinter

@goiioo4 i love python i'm a little slut for python

@bri_seven ìf you didn't want to get catcalled then why did you transition

in lighter news i'm doing python again (derogatory) (made to sound like a drug) (explicit) (gone sexual) (gone wrong)

@bri_seven precisely

@bri_seven i'm glad and i'm not dismissing it without a note, but i assure you it will not help me especially presently

@bri_seven shows how much i know, i thought it was a tv series.

i don't think i'll watch it. sorry i've had enough of being on the receiving side of it to watch a dramatization even if it has a deeper moral to it

if you get hired as a sysadmin and haven't watched serial experiments lain yet HR forces you to detransition

if you don't have a blåhaj in time for the first pride event after coming out they take away your trans card

@bri_seven this is the othering part i meant

i suppose next you'll say i need catgirl programmer socks and a copy of the original c programming language reference

@bri_seven the reference is lost on me

@bri_seven as an objective baseline i'm happier as a woman too! i guess that's not what i meant.

and trust me i've been trying to build my own spaces for a very long time. i founded this instance 6 years ago.

@bri_seven envy and rsd suck. i'll never be free of them and venting is the only solace i have

@bri_seven being adjacent but not part of groups and cliques and just sitting on the outside looking in triggers my rejection sensitivity heavily and i need to carefully curate my feed of most sources of that. which ends up in me isolating myself more, the irony is not lost on me, but it's how i've survived so far.

i don't know what i need exactly. but i know what i missing and i cry about it a lot

@bri_seven fitting in was never so much a goal as it is something i yearn for to be happy with myself

i'm a social creature. i've been left with nothing but my own devices for almost 3 decades. i want to be pestered. i want to be a part of something.

@bri_seven ok but let me tell you just exactly how that picture of you is about to federate...

maybe i just won't fit in no matter what gender or homones i have in my meat shell.

i've been on hrt for 8 years and all i got was this lousy t-shirt. i can't feel like one of the girls and i can't feel like one of the other girls either.