maple "mavica" syrup [6502] @mavica_again@computerfairi.es

crud...

i don't have a replacement thermal pad for this, would it be too bad to replace it with paste or keep the pad from 1998?

everybody says winamp but nobody asks whynamp

i wish the 7800 came in the same white colour scheme as the 7700 series but hey at least we get beefier specs. Pentium 2 and S3 ViRGE/MX. don't know clock speed or ram yet, i should be doing my day job instead of playing with this sadly 😓

yes i watched the lgr video about the 7710MT. yes i immediately looked for local Compaq laptops. mostly i was frustrated that i couldn't fix my Satellite Pro 420CDT so this is to tide me over until i can work on that again

so this little guy followed me home

you have all the right to disagree with my words because they're absolutely imperfect dogshit words, but right now it's all i have to explain how i'm actually feeling

things suck. social media sucks. jealousy sucks. begging for attention after being told you're allowed to, only for then to be shunned because of it, sucks. i'm hurt, i cannot deny this. i won't blame any single person but i don't think this is mine alone to fix

right now best i can summarize as i said in a message to a friend:

i'm isolated whether i like it or not. if i run away from everybody at least it's on my own terms.

i won't delete my tweets from the previous days. i still feel hurt and stand behind much of what i posted. they're complicated feelings.

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i'm alive. i'm still not ok. i read every message from those who cared enough to send them, thank you. i'm going to stay away for a while longer.

if i do it soon enough nobody will even notice because it'll be overshadowed. you know.

if i just emotionally revert to my channer imageboard moderator years i can give everybody the excuse they're all looking for to wash their hands of me so nobody feels guilty when i do everybody a favour by killing myself

i angrily envy all of you who have friends and were invited to hang out and stuff. i'm almost 30 and i never did any of that. i'm toxic waste but nobody lets me off myself because suicide icky

"these isolating times" isn't covid years for me. it's my entire adult life and ongoing. nobody gives a fuck