🐿️✨🐿️🎇🖕 (inactive) @squirrelbutt@computerfairi.es

@Elizafox is this a numb3rs fanfic

anyway let's clear out bad thoughts with some music

https://soundcloud.com/svetlana/the-synthpop

@YOLO_STALIN not really, i could probably find a shoddy short-term solution but honestly every time i consider it it seems like such a hassle that it's not worth pursuing

all these people talking on the internet and i still manage to feel desolate

ok sorry about that i'll stop ranting now bye

and now i just have horrible self-esteem and generally a lot of direct and indirect self-hate in several ways because of how much i was put down growing up

lol but no, parents know best

fuck off

it took one suicide attempt for them to back off *a little bit* and let me take the minimal amount of control over my life

and now that i have a semblance of a life outside my family they keep complaining i'm abandoning them even though they still rope me into horrible family reunions and i get no say in it

with how much shit i get from my family it's a wonder i'm even still alive

when i was 15 i didn't think i'd live to be 20

and they're so cynical not knowing why i "suddenly" got so "messed up in the head" like uhh maybe you're the reason, fuckwad?

@shivian@mastodon.xyz i wish i had non-bio parents

squirrel, the chaos witch.
species: devil
broomstick: heart tipped broom
familiar(s): tabby cat
magic: spirit summon
https://en.shindanmaker.com/620471

oh

@shivian@mastodon.xyz bio-mom is such a cool cyberpunkish term

and incidentally my bio mom is the only one in my family that i can sort of tolerate in our interactions but she has horrible political views that always ruin everything

fucking holy shit my entire family is dysfunctional and toxic get me out of here

i just, i want to hit something to hard when i hear that name directed at me

and it makes me feel so weird to meet other people with that name

i just, i want to be able to erase my entire family from my life sometimes

there's very very few occasions where i don't feel this way and i don't think they redeem the other times in any way sorry

@polymerwitch@toot.cat my family does it on purpose. ESPECIALLY in front of guests who haven't clocked me.

haha i love being deadnamed by my whole family haha die in a fucking fire

@fireantprincess hi charlotte!!

my brother and his wife quarrel so much every time they come over i kinda hate whenever they're here

@maffsie idk i just thought you would be following more than a single person from queer.party :p i guess if someone with more follows from there comes over here eventually we'll see more posts from over there