Lady Bull 🥀🐂🥀 @witchylyn@computerfairi.es

Do I seek out and report transphobic comments as hate speech bc I care that much? Or am I just looking for an excuse to do a version of self harm?

It's really frustrating because it seems like I will never "get healthy" this way. Not to the level I'd like to be at, anyway.

One of the reasons I'm so excited to move is that it'll be much cheaper. I'll be able to afford food again!

I can't afford enough food to exercise consistently.

My recovery from even a minor workout can take a week because of my malnourished diet. Even when I'm managing my eating disorder, I just can't afford all the food I need.

The irony (?) is that exercise helps me stoke an appetite I otherwise don't have. So, I exercise as much as safely can, and ration the food I do have, and am often just hungry. Idk. Seems more important to keep the ed under control.

Uh, this is what I look like.

https://computerfairi.es/media/Q1I1KNB2mMYiZq3veGk

Thank you to everyone who send me positive vibes this last week! I'm half way through this anticipated time of turmoil, but it's almost over. Things will be SO GOOD in a week once I'm all moved in.

The next few weeks are going to be some of my busiest and most emotionally taxing weeks of my life so far.

Please send all the good vibes. Cast a spell, pray, I'll take it all.

I've gotten some sun recently and now the foundation I bought last summer matches again.

Life is good.

I got My hair cut colored for the first time yesterday. I used Admirial Holdo from The Last Jedi as the color reference, and I love it!

I was a little worried about maintaining the color for as long as possible, but apparently I already do all the things? No shampoo, cold showers was already how I showered.

It's like I was always meant to have vivid colored hair! 😁

Do you ever fall asleep listening to a podcast, but then later redownload it bc you actually want to listen to it, and the whole thing sounds vaguely familiar?

Anyone else watching Smash Summit rn? This bracket stage has been INSANE.

Finally have my laptop up and running again after a really silly partition disaster. It wasn't a difficult fix, but itnwaa frustrating to work on because...

A) going in, I didn't know how Linux organizes disk space.

B) I caused the problem myself.

I saw one of my favorite bands tonight live at a house show and I got to sing along and mosh and I could die right now and be happy.

Today is already good because I'm actually catching my biweekly writers group meeting live, rather than a recording a day later.