bev! @TonicBH@computerfairi.es

My mom turned me onto coffee years ago, with a bit of creamer and sugar, per her recommendation.

After drinking it on and off for years, I finally realized why I put them in (besides mom recommending me that I do):

- The creamer is supposed to cool down the hot coffee to a drinkable level (nobody likes burning their mouths/tongue, after all)

- The sugar counters the bitterness of the coffee itself.

One day I might get more experimental with different creamers and such.

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Anyway, sorry for raining on people's parade tonight. I'm a bit annoyed at myself because I took a "nap" that was longer than expected, throwing plans I had out the window.

It's been almost three months since I streamed something.

It's been a month since I wrote something substantial.

I get pockets of energy/drive but then it goes away and I do practically nothing for days to weeks at a time until said pocket comes back.

I think I might need to talk with my doctor sooner than January to resolve this depression problem, because god I hate feeling this way.

I've contemplated making an introductions post but it'd all be "I do this but due to crippling depression + no motivation I don't right now"

I feel like I'd just make it worse for myself, you know?

Starting to think I need more plaid shirts.

My brain starts to play Highway Star in my head, but then it segues into Kickstart My Heart.

Damn you brain, stick to a single song you goob.

That moment when you drink a bunch of coffee yet do nothing except watch a stream of Giant Bomb's Alex Navarro playing Rock Band on drums.

It's *mesmerizing*.

Realized I haven't eaten much since 4PM yesterday. Decided to microwave a breakfast sandwich.

Now I'm wishing someone made the equivalent of McGriddles. That's a rad breakfast sandwich, right there.

Not gonna lie, artists who just post their NSFW work alongside normal "tame" art like it's nothing is the gutsiest thing I've ever seen.

Maybe we've become more accepting of that sort of thing?

Heard the news that a trans girl has passed. Sadly I didn't know her, but the news still hurts to hear.

Remember that people are there for you. You're not alone.

I think I realized why I slept in a bunch yesterday:

I took a bit too much CBD tincture.

At least I can add that alongside benedryl and nyquil in "take half the minimum dosage unless you love sleeping in for a whole day."

Update: Now it's "Bungle in the Jungle" by Jethro Tull.

These aren't bad songs but GET OUT OF MY HEADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Having Counting Crows' "Accidentally in Love" stuck in my head is a new kind of hell.

I slept too much today. Sucks.

On kinder news, I crave hamburgers and/or chicken nuggets and have neither. :(

Is it bad to wanna punch someone for having bad political opinions? Asking for a friend.

I saw my uncle share a meme about "People checking on $800 phones to see their food stamp balance."

How dare poor people have some semblance of luxury, jesus christ.

Shuffle decided to play Glenn Frey's "You Belong to the City."

Quite fitting considering how it is tonight.