Angela Quinton @aquinton@computerfairi.es

there's so much going on.

i'm volunteering at a race tomorrow. then i have a 3-hour run. both events will likely be in heavy rain.

i just sold my Predator suit today, and i need to package it up in a box that's almost bigger than my car and ship it to the eastern United States. the proceeds will service some debt.

it's my period and there's a full moon coming.

it's TDOV and i don't really want to be seen as trans. i want to be seen as yellow eyes in the dark.

due to some food mistakes made last night i am feeling extra bitchy today. extremely tempted to say unkind things about werewolf character design choices that i dislike, or complain about local vendors never calling me back. instead I'll just say: fuck the Yankees

Asserting that I am the Howard Moon of the team and receiving polite indifference in return. Classic Howard stuff

Trying and failing to get a Mighty Boosh riff going in the work chat

3D printer works great

Model: https://sarokichi3.booth.pm/items/4582812

i want to bite my hand really hard and feel fangs, not human teeth

guys always love to telling people about" Machine Learning"
but they do not care of, "Machine Yearning"

[mandible clicking sound]

Last time getting fully suited up in my Predator suit before I box it up and ship it to a new owner. So high maintenance, so fun to wear!

#yautja #monstersuit

Even now I feel the human urge to tie these feelings to gender or autism. Those connections could rightly be made. I will probably continue talking about those connections as I have been for years. But right now, the same part of me that rejects “she” in favour of “it” also rejects any attempt to soften or intellectualize this part of myself.

I just am what I am. A werewolf.

To myself I say: it is okay to love this.

It is okay to enjoy the majesty and playfulness inherent in the lupine expressions of others, and to feel little or none of it in myself.

I don’t know everything about what I am, but I do not feel majestic or wise or unselfconsciously playful. I feel like a monster that is content to be a monster. Content to love and protect its own, and to be mostly unseen by others.