maple "mavica" syrup [6502] @mavica_again@computerfairi.es

with self awareness comes self consciousness

just fucking around so far, no real practicality

ableton seems to be the only software to fully take advantage of the entire control surface, but the lights are all controlled over the MIDI protocol so in theory more software could be specially-tailored for this

got a new midi controller so of course the first thing i do isn't use it for any musical reason but rather write a python script to control the rgb lights in it

i'm tired and i'm bored and i have toys to play with and anhedonia is taking over

really hoping my package gets here tomorrow 🥺

in what world is this too much to ask for

if you can't donate money to me while i'm unemployed at least please say nice things to me today. please

the fediverse and cliques intent on pushing queer people (especially trans women) off it have been giving me ptsd since 2017 with gaslighting tactics and yeah i lick my wounds about it because sometimes i do want someone to pat me on the head and tell me i'm ok isn't that the whole point of being constantly told it's ok to ask for help because it doesn't seem to do anything

it's awkward is all. i don't want to keep track of everybody who has a grudge with me but when i don't i get told i'm being abusive or something

lil bit weird when i find people who were blocking me on twitter not blocking me on mastodon like am i supposed to let them know as if i was on a list and need to announce myself to new neighbours or do i get a mulligan for each new social media platform

i am happy because everybody loves me