maple classic™ @squirrel@computerfairi.es

hhhhhhheckkkkkkk https://computerfairi.es/media/RdPzy8u6F_XJPS4yb10

@bea @Elizafox the same way as to the bathroom and kitchen and bathroom and kitchen and bathroom and kitchen and bathroom and kitchen and bathroom and kitchen and bathroom and kitchen and

hi i'm ok with electronics and i like to #fixmystuff

however i will only be able to help people remotely since i'm in south america

@bea

heavyyyyy eyelidsssss

oh hey i just realized my toots are sending on the campus wifi again

@TrollDecker all?

the stunt race fx/wild trax title screen theme is stuck in my head now

blurrgghjjjh i want my motherboard back so i can do squirrel-chan's fuck-up hour again

@RealDaveRyder yes please

@lizardsquid Heck yeah

@azka welcome!

@TrollDecker at least i got to see a cutie today so that's a plus =o=

i doubt i'll ever meet someone from mastodon in person besides eliza

and people keep telling me "but you're so pretty" "but i thought you were cis" and in my head it amounts to nothing

because it takes a tremendous effort every morning to look half as good as i wish i could just to be psychologically able to leave the house or post a selfie and there are still days i get clocked on the street even then

i already knew what i wanted since i was 16 but it wasn't until i was 21 that i got to start hrt. i already knew back then i should at least be on hormone blockers. my mom wouldn't let me.

i watched, already aware, puberty destroy every hope i had of being myself physically

i will never stop regretting not having been able to start sooner and avoid everything that still pains me to this day every single morning when i look at the mirror to shave

my parents only stopped actively hating me after an unsuccessful suicide attempt

after one year or so hrt my mom finally always used the right name and pronouns for me

my grandmother, who i live with, is still a bigot

the rest of my family is a mixed bag

things are better now but i can't let go of the past

oh are we doing coming out stories

when i first came out as bi, my parents avoided the subject

when my mom found a skirt in my clothes she wouldn't look me in the eye for a week

when i came out as trans the first thing my dad told me was "not all bad people are faggots but all faggots are bad people" (he used stronger wording i have no real translation for)

when i locked myself in the bathroom and started crying for hours my mother threatened to throw me out of home