maple classic™ @squirrel@computerfairi.es

i wish i could enjoy things like normal people do instead of being upset that i'll never experience them

i don't know if i know what depersonalization is but it might be what i've been feeling

or i'm perfectly fine and i just want people to pity me

and whenever i'm not upsetting someone i'm getting upset envying others for having things i can't and i can't stop myself from being a bad person about it

i just don't really feel worth anything because all i do here is keep upsetting someone and there'll always be someone better to replace me and whenever i'm gone things will just continue normally so it's hard to feel like staying is a right thing to do like subjecting everyone here to me is not a fair thing

here's the short rushed ost i made for the A Game By Its Cover Jam entry Magical Twins https://soundcloud.com/svetlana/sets/magical-twins

you can play it here http://jane-dove.itch.io/magical-twins

this is so catchy http://vgmrips.net/packs/pack/power-drift-sega-y#04-like-the-wind-b-course

i'm sure turning the volume up on my headphones is bad for my hearing long term but the bass vibrations are so good...

i ask because lately i feel like i've been upsetting a lot of people and i want to know what to do not to upset anyone anymore

when you decide you feel uncomfortable about someone following you do you let them know you're softblocking them or do you do so quietly

this is not a subtoot i want to know what people expect from me

third https://computerfairi.es/media/lls6iZzaKdm5P08Kgzk

also my new pins are here!! https://computerfairi.es/media/uqs1-FAFJWHny7G5zh8

quick dummy cord setup for my current phone https://computerfairi.es/media/NzZezMH4EUlkrlfS-vA

i probably don't pass the turing test

i'm already nuts deep* into studying operating systems about process scheduling and memory allocation i don't need to distract myself with more useless compsci theory right now

*IT'S A SQUIRREL THING GET YOUR MIND OUT OF THE GUTTER

am i a fake geek girl if i don't understand big o notation

i'm a critter

i like the word critter

phone update: parents decided to buy me a new one, so i already have a replacement

https://computerfairi.es/media/HCQnhIwR3LxDYX3GNMk