maple "mavica" syrup [6502] @mavica_again@computerfairi.es

you know when you get a really aged bit of rubber or leather and you try to bend it and it just cracks and crumbles

that's how i feel trying to get anything done today

@daniel_westhof Paint Shop Pro 3 from 1995 supports PNG, GIF and JPG and runs on Windows 3.1

@daniel_westhof i love the glitchart potential with a scanner you can manually mess the calibration of, this is exquisite

oh finally discord overlay integration with (checks notes) aseprite

@jk this works sometimes with me, but not always! there needs to be a right quality of "novel" before my brain can pick it up eagerly. and then drop it a week later

@Stinkie GOD same!!! i put something off for months causing immense dread of it hanging over my head and then it's done in one sitting and i crash emotionally because it's over and now i have to find something else to do

@jk sometimes i look at my old code and it's absolutely wretched hundreds of characters long single lines of a convoluted "if" condition. and then i look at what it compiled to and it works. and logically i can affirm that it doesn't matter what the code looks like if it works yet i cannot recapture the hubris to make new things

maybe i'm just rusty (robot pun) but i feel it's increasingly hard to get started on a project anymore. i wish i could get my executive dysfunction and lack of focus patched out

i used to be able to write a game in like a week by doing everything "wrong". now i feel obligated to write out several data structures and plan complicated movement logic before i can even put a sprite on the screen. i hate this. i want my 14 year old circuits back

i am so sick of flat design. i need to put gradients and bevels on things more. i will be the change i want to see in the web

@caroline no no a favourite there sent the right message, thank you

mavica is spelled lowercase, just in case you didn't know :]

i already don't have a support structure here. i already barely have friends on the fediverse. i have nothing to lose by being loud and annoying about meta that is actively harming us every single day. i'm done being polite

i'm tired of being quiet and orderly under the fear that people will get away from me if i'm anything but

if i'm annoying you by being myself don't let the door hit you on the way out

if i see a single person in my spaces and championing iftas, nivenly, thebadpsace, elekk or are0h after all these events, i will block you on sight.

iftas, nivenly and thebadspace are nothing short of transphobic organizations made with the single only purpose of "cleaning up" the fediverse of us. don't let them