Lizardsquid, maker of noises @lizardsquid@computerfairi.es

I need something to do, but nothing I've tried holds my attention for long

I shouldn't have read her suicide note

now I'm crying too much

I never got to tell her how much she meant to me

Lydia left a hole, but I can't see it

when Natalie died, the hole she left was visible. Even though we didn't talk that often, I still saw her every day or two and her absence was noticable

With Lydia, I kept thinking "oh I need to get back in touch, have more of our fun conversations, play games together, jibe and jab, connect..."

and now that will never happen

I was thinking about the fun times we would have if I got back in touch.... but I never got a chance to

I wish i was an interesting person, but I'll settle for just being cuddly